You know what, Jamie said to post positives and even negative stuff. So here goes.... I feel like jelly on a plate that's getting shaken. My head this last couple of days is pretty scrambled. My cycle is due (hormones are a b**ch), and I know I feel so much level headed after. But I'll be honest, this last few days has been a struggle. I'm feeling sad from the funeral on Tuesday despite rekindling a friendship. The "phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones"; well I've usually got a thick skin, but coupled with the funeral and hormones, some words this week that have been thrown really and are really cutting deep. And I'm struggling to shift the low mood. I'm still doing my macros, my steps, my exercise. I'm distracting myself with other things and really getting stuck into the time with the kids and that makes me so happy. I even bought myself flowers. But alone time at the minute just feels that much harder. Rather than feeling good and strong in the gym, I'm feeling inadequate, I have imposter syndrome and starting to doubt myself and my confidence is rocked so I feel I've gone into my shell. And why? All because of a bit of emotion, hormones and some words... I feel silly posting this, as I'm usually able to pivot but today feels like a struggle.

I currently attend a council gym, the positives are it is close by and I know the layout. The negatives are equipment is also broken, currently 3 machines are out of order, there is no parking (but I can walk there), the water cooler has been broken for around 2 months, it can get very busy and is laid out poorly and they just recently banned taking in bags. I have found a private gym near me, it's a 15 minute drive, it's much bigger, has its own car park and has a limited number of members only downside is its more expensive and slightly further away.

To cheer people up who are having a bad day!

Feeling a let down this week, I’m on leave but I recognise I’ve fully burned out I’ve not been gym this week I feel bad for it I know I will get back on it and trying to be kind to myself but I’m frustrated with my body some of my friends in here I’ve already spoke with but know you will all get how I feel at the moment, you lot are the best X

My boots are too big for my legs!! Put them on to go out tonight and they were loose!! Result