I’ve been meaning to set up this desk & put curtains up in my studio office for 18 months!! I’m pretty much there!! My printer is setup, Alexa is setup, my screen has had its bubble wrap removed, I’ve sawn one of the curtain tracks (3 more to go!), my table is plugged in, I need to find the scart lead & keyboard/mouse dongle, get one of the lads down the hall to put up my whiteboard, & im good to go! 🎉🎉🎉 My arms are shaking from the sawing! 😂 I’m probably doing it wrong. But I’m doing! 🤪

I'm done looking capable on the outside while quietly drowning on the inside. I'm done walking through my own front door and feeling defeated instead of supported. I'm done paying a mortgage on a house someone else should be living in — while my own home sits half-renovated, chaotic, and unfinished. I'm here because three and a half years ago, I lost my corporate role, and with it, I lost the structure, the income, the identity, and the momentum that made me feel like me. And since then — through burnout, redundancy, menopause, and an ADHD diagnosis — I've been trying to rebuild from the inside out while pretending I already had it together. I'm done pretending. I'm here because I know exactly what I need to do. I've always known. The gap was never knowledge — it was follow-through. And I'm done letting avoidance, shame, and overwhelm steal my future one unopened email at a time. These six weeks are not "one day." These six weeks are now. Let's kick in some of that Hyperfocus, and keep the long term goal - right, front and centre of my Vision.

I haven’t been officially diagnosed yet, but I’m pretty sure I have ADHD. I’d love to hear from anyone who has tried ADHD medication—what were their experiences?

Alright Harmony Family… it’s time. My loops have been giving me side‑eye for weeks, and I’ve decided to stare one down before it grows legs and starts paying rent. So… I’m hosting a Loopathon! 🎉 Inspired by the tiny loop we all tackled on Day One of the 5‑Day Challenge, this is a two‑week mini‑mission to close ONE loop.Not a project.Not a life overhaul.Not “repaint the house, reorganise the garage, and write a memoir.” Just one small loop — the kind with 5 or 6 steps max — the one you keep meaning to finish but somehow it keeps… looping. Think: - That form you printed but never signed - The email you drafted but never sent - The thing you bought the supplies for but never actually did - The drawer you opened, sighed at, and closed again - The “I’ll just do that tomorrow” task that’s now old enough to vote Pick one. Name it. Claim it.And over the next two weeks, let’s cheer each other on as we close these little circles of chaos. Post your loop below — bonus points for humour, honesty, or admitting how long it’s been haunting you.I’ll go first… 😅 🌀 My Loopathon Loop: The Scrum Mastery Certification (…Again 😅) Alright, confession time:Twelve months ago I heroically began my Scrum Mastery Certification. My boss even paid for it. I did the modules… I did the learning… I did everything except the small, tiny, microscopic detail of… actually sitting the exam. Fast‑forward to now:I’m paying for the exam myself (hello, ADHD tax, my old friend), and it’s officially become my Loopathon loop. So here it is — my 5–6 step loop that absolutely does not need to be a project, but has been living rent‑free in my brain for a year: - Finish the last modules (for real this time, not “mentally finished”) - Do the mock exams without crying, bargaining, or reorganising the pantry instead - Block out proper revision time in the calendar that I will definitely attend and not just admire - (Hmmmn I will find time by not doom scrolling!!! and the ivnites will be colour‑coded, because that makes it feel official) - Book the exam for the third week of April - Celebrate passing - do happy dance

I spoke for the first time with my Talking Therapies person last week; my CBT assessment after losing the plot last year when my little angel rescue dog passed. I’ve been in some very scary dark places. But I’ve kept going despite all of the internal dialogue. My ikigai being tested to the max! The past week doing the 6 day course and the actions and being a part of this community has been life-changing. My ikigai brought to the front again; realising I’ve been stuffing my life full of stuff (overeating/physical stuff/digital stuff/to do’s) to control me; I’ve now found a reason to do my daily dopamine saviour routine etc etc I’ve colour-coded my diary and matched my ‘M365 To Do app’ to match. I feel organised and prepared more than I have in a very long time. My internal dialogue is so very positively different. So yesterday she asked me lots of questions in a lengthy monologue; I could barely get a word in! But when I did get my chance I told her all about my ADHD Harmony community and the course and how I feel about myself right now.. She asked how I felt about neuroscience (paraphrasing), and I told her I’ve studied it through books and various short courses many years ago, and recently through ADHD Harmony. She was happy about this! But she talked so much, and over me, and I could tell I’d thrown her call plan. I’ve given her patience as she’s currently being supervised. Anyhoo, she’s given me a diary to fill out to record how everything I do in my day makes me feel… that’s some ‘to do’! 🤣 Especially now I’m closing loops and being more calendarly (new word) active than I have in months. Here to closing loops, creating new narratives, and neuroplasticity! 🎉🎉🎉 Thank you, @Jim Ebbelaar and my amazing ADHD Harmony community. 🙏🥰 Pic: my little angel Ben during his ‘bucket week’ on his 18th birthday party boat ride. He loved the Bristol Ferry. ❤️