I'm still searching for my loop. So to break that down I'm guessing it would look like this . I don't know, I'm struggling I would address what it is I'm trying to accomplish and that's so generalized and vast. I don't know if I'm going to make it through this. For the last year it's been get up, get My son off to school, deal with ( Susan) My mother. Handle my business for the day, take Care of everything involving the evening then pass out Rinse, wash, repeat All while working on not disturbing Susan. You can tell I'm struggling can't you?

Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and already realized something wild: every productivity system I've tried has failed because they're built for a brain that runs on logic, and mine runs on urgency and novelty. The "lazy" label I've carried since I was 12 was never the truth. It was just the wrong operating manual.

Where it came from: i think it permanently became part of me in 9/1995 when I picked my mom and her husband up at the hospital from a suicide attempt she had. My mother’s husband, Phil, was not a good husband, but a bad person who was great at being manipulative. My new code: "I am not a failure. Being told ‘if you ever do that again (call 911 after picking up my cousins wife and bringing her back to help when my mother attempted suicide and I found her) " I’ll shove your teeth down your throat. My Future Self statement: "I am the kind of person who wants to break free from the self condemning person I’ve become and be the fun witty guy who is that way because that’s who he is, not another mask to wear" Debugging in progress...

Anybody else in perimenopause? I’m 42 and undiagnosed (in both ADHD and menopause lol) but feel like there is no deny it now that my hormones all over the place and the masks have slipped! (Didn’t know I was masking but feel like a really need to get to know myself and be true to myself in this stage of life)

ever experienced this there are days when a word, a normal, common and boring one sounds different. My brain will latch on it for hours, generally for most of that day. analysing it and thinking that for some reason this word will never sound the same again and feeling weird. is this a thing? this is what AI says: Yes, this is absolutely a recognized psychological phenomenon. What you are describing is very common and usually stems from a fascinating cognitive glitch known as semantic satiation. It can also occasionally cross over into another strange sensation called jamais vu. Your brain is essentially getting temporarily overloaded by a specific word, causing it to break down. Here is a breakdown of why this happens and what is going on in your head: 🌀 1. Semantic Satiation What it is: A psychological phenomenon where uninterrupted repetition or extended analysis of a word causes it to temporarily lose its meaning. The Cause: When you see or hear a word, a specific pattern of neurons fires in your brain to connect that sound to its actual meaning. The Glitch: If your brain focuses on that word for too long, those specific neural pathways experience "reactive inhibition" (essentially neural fatigue). The Result: The brain temporarily breaks the connection between the word and its meaning. You stop hearing a word and start hearing it purely as a collection of weird, arbitrary mouth sounds. 🎭 2. Jamais Vu What it is: Often described as the direct opposite of déjà vu. It translates from French to "never seen". The Feeling: It is the distinct, often eerie sensation of looking at something you know perfectly well (like a very common word), but suddenly finding it entirely unfamiliar, alien, and bizarre. The Trigger: Recent scientific studies have actually induced jamais vu in labs simply by making people write or focus on a common word like "the" over and over until it felt incredibly alien to them. 🧠 Why Does Your Brain Latch Onto It? Humans are highly geared toward pattern recognition.