Big Rocks & Commitment Letter [Update Ooopsie] - Week 1
Apparently, I did the self-guided Commitment Letter, not the AI app. Holy cow what a difference! This is the abbreviated version, if you can believe it. Big Rocks: #1 My body ā sleep and gentle morning movement. My body needs to be strong enough to carry me into the life I've dreamed of. This is how I prove, one morning at a time, that I love myself unconditionally. #2 My art ā I come alive when I create. Designing, coloring, painting ā that's when I am most myself. What has to change is the hiding. I will stop putting my art into the world only to snatch it back. I will let it stay. I will let me stay. The Commitment Letter: I'm here because I don't want the rest of my life to look like the last ten. I am done tolerating scraps and pittances and believing I don't deserve more ā as if a mistake made years ago is a lifelong penance to be endured. I'm done watching my life waste away while the vision I've always had for myself stays locked inside me like a painting no one will ever see. I'm done being a mere shadow of my former self. I'm done making myself invisible. My nervous system is shattered as a result. I commit to showing up consistently no matter how haggered I feel, completing check-ins despite my protests, doing the exercises no matter how late I may be, engaging with the community regardless of how naked and vulnerable I feel. And, when it gets hard, I will return to my Big Rocks (my future me š), do my protocol once I figure out what it is, and will eventually remember why I started even if I have misplaced my thoughts and notes on the matter. I don't need to put on a happy face to be visible. I just need to stop disappearing š„°