So February is always a rough month for me. My Dad died 5 years ago and it also his birthday month. So I try to just "survive" and not be too caught up in things. But I know deep down I am much more sensitive and take things extremely personally. So when February had some ups and downs with my relationship to my husband it really shook me. (It will be addressed, he was finally accepting some mental health help and turns out depression) It is hard to want support during a hard time, when your support person is essentially not available. It was very jarring how withdrawn he got when I was upset. And all I wanted was cuddles or nice words to help snap me out of a spiral of sadness. So my commitment this week is to research self coping skills more. It is not fair to rely on someone else especially when they too are struggling. Good: Research 2 new to me techniques Better: Plan out how they could be done in my current situation Best: Implement 1 of those things when I am seeking external comfort

So I did post my return to YouTube video. This week I plan to prep and film 2 so I can edit and release later. I made it were I only have to do 2 videos a month. So it should let me have space and create a backlog of videos so I don't feel so pressured Good: film 2 videos Better: film 2 edit one. Best: filmed and edited and scheduled the 2 Insane: I do more more than 2 this week

Sooooo my focus this month is on YouTube. And while this seems not related to health. It is because I need to be able to set boundaries again to do the work I like to do. My mental health was suffering from feeling like I was just supposed to do stuff for everyone else and me last. So Good: 1 hour to get ideas (1 hour total across the week) Better: 2 hours with some outlines (title/hook/thumbnail idea) Best: 3 hours and I actually film one

Do you have some encouragement for your fellow Shift Society members? Any words/quotes that keep you going when you don't feel like it? Mine in the comment. Well this GIF ages me perfectly haha

Hey... I want this place to be real. Which means showing up in all my seasons. I’ve hinted at this before, so some of you may already know, but I’m in a bit of a sticky legal situation related to real estate. Nothing criminal, nothing life-threatening, okay 😅, but still very much a worst-case-scenario type situation. And it’s been going on for years. Every once in a while, it really boils over. This week was one of those weeks. A lot of big decisions. A lot of hard conversations. A lot of getting deep into the weeds of the very thing we all try to put in a box and ignore. So why am I sharing this? I’m not going to apologize, I’m human. And I want to normalize listening to your body. I had a full outline for my next video. I was genuinely excited to record it. But I’m just… not in the right place this week. It’s not going to work, and forcing it wouldn’t serve anyone. Instead, I’m choosing to honor the fact that I did a big push and now I need rest. My hope is that by modeling this, the next time you notice your body asking for nervous system regulation, restoration, space… you listen. You honor it. So I’m giving myself room to reset. I want to close the chapter on this hard week. It’s one of those “hurry up and wait” situations that stretches on over years, and for now, I’m putting it back in a box. Hard weeks and hard days can still hold good things. Today I’m practicing gratitude: for this community, for the reminders, and for the lesson that it’s okay to take a break. 💛 And on that note what’s making you laugh lately? Drop your Netflix, YouTube, or Prime recommendations below… I’m taking all of them 😂😄