I don't feel right, like I don't have peace. Maybe it's because God wants to take this lukewarm part of me out? I don't really know where I stand with God, if I'm his kid or I still haven't accepted him. Prayers for discernment could be heavily needed. I'm also getting a car hopefully soon, so making sure I'm saved before driving on my own would be nice, so if I'm not saved right now and I die, I would go to hell.

Guys, I just wanna confess that I failed today and I know the roots are multiple things. I get sad and angry at work and exhausted and I’ve used it as a coping mechanism to take away some of the bad feelings and it’s just amplified him for anyone reading this is not worth it we will die if we keep doing what we do we have to not only have respect but the fear of God within us, that’s all I’m lacking help me God to fear you and love you and respect you and cherish you and what you did on the cross change my heart very rebuke my thoughts Holy Spirit, Lord God, give me the strength overcome my thoughts because with you, we can do all things who strengthens us. I failed today after work. I was so exhausted and it was kind of a bad day. Just kept getting bad situation after bad situation today and I had a thought at work and I rebuke it and I was doing so well I didn’t even want it closer. I got to quit in time and kept coming back and I kept rebuking it. I didn’t want it second I get home into the door. This urge came over me and it wasn’t even that overwhelming. It was like you know what I need this and I even started shaking as I was on the way please guys prayers cause with him. I can do all things I’m not trying to be like oh please pray for me. Don’t rebuke me cause I need discipline I need fasting. I need to feed the fear of God and deal with within me. I need to have respect for him and love for him God I’m sorry I don’t. I think you that your Holy Spirit is Convicting me. I’m sorry that I hurt you God, your Holy Spirit that I grieved you that I hurt you, Lord Jesus after what you did on the cross, you’re such a good God and so holy majestic and you saved your direction like me you are king of kings and Lord Lord, and I can’t just keep saying I’m sorry I love you God and I’m gonna show it to you I’m gonna approve it please God give me a deep scene and love at the core of my heart. Please cleanse my heart and change who I am everything I do. I know you won’t make me But tell me how and what to do speak to me through someone on here or through dreams and visions or other people because God I can’t do it all cut off anything you want me to cut off if I’m not doing something right I’m gonna haven’t even played the Xbox and multiple days and I still fail so please tell me what all I have to cut off if it’s multiple things or from cutting off the wrong things Lord Jesus, I need you. I’m so lost without you. I know that is a fact and I wanna just be you want me to be? I am in the process of sanctification. I know it is not a one and done. I’m sorry do I have to repent daily? I have to Deny my flesh daily. God tell me on the fast and the fast and I’ll do it and I’m sorry God I feel so fake because I’m praying into this phone and not to you but I feel like I got a confession at the same time and I’m sorry please pray for me guys.

Hey everyone, I wanna let you know that I love you all you this community has been so good and God bless. I’m praying for all of us struggling with this battle guys. I need prayers bad I want your opinions on it cause I used to be lukewarm, and then I got saved. This might be TMI. I don’t know. I moved about a year ago into my girlfriend‘s grandmother‘s and I was like a cultural Christian, but I didn’t believe you had to go to church to go to heaven. I was living off a free Grace gospel and I was so deceived that was just the way I was raised but Then After so many stupid decisions in high school. God still blessed me. He is so good and he blessed me with an amazing, smart and beautiful girlfriend. She is the best person in my life. He’s giving me the best gift on earth and I fell today twice like right after one another I fell and the first time I was like no no there’s no way I can come back from this and then I still felt God somehow he’s well not somehow but he’s just so good and so awesome and so glorious he still saved a wretch like me and he was like no get up. I’m gonna use you. I could feel him telling me he’s gonna use me to help all the other people that are just going through this And then like 510 minutes later I fell again and I just wanna confess it to all the guys I probably confess on here so much you might even think I’m lukewarm not genuinely in it. I have a heart issue so father God, I confess it to you now my heart is so messed up Lord Jesus, please God I don’t want your forgiveness I want to be changed and truly repent and just be washed clean you are the king of Kings and Lord of Lord and I’m so sorry for all that I have done against you. My family loved ones and a good life. You’ve given me Lord Jesus I’m tired of abusing your grace please father God I am sorry and I can’t just keep saying it. I need you to wash me God I wanna beg you to take it away but I know that’s not how this works and then I get mad at you for me having this, but everyone goes through their own trials and I know it’s your choice and it’s a heart issue please God wash me clean. I wanna persevere give me the strength God I love you and I’m sorry and I wanna prove I love you cause if I did love you and my girlfriend, I wouldn’t do what I do. I’m sorry I hate my sin. I hate what I do help me God and save me for myself and heal me creating me a new clean heart or new steadfast spirit with me help me know when to read your word and want to read if I can do what to do for you and your plan in your glory for others and then lastly myself because there’s so many things my selfish heart seeks after but what I know what I need most is to know you in a more holy and majestic way God help me crush my iniquity and wash me clean. I’m sorry and I love you and I wanna show it to you with every breath I take for the rest of my life and I know I’ll fall short, but my identity is within you and I’m a child of God when you look at me you see Jesus and what he did for me so I thankyou , Lord Jesus who was and is and is to come if I could, I just bow down to you Kiss your feet. You are the king of Kings and Lord of lords you’re so awesome so glorious please use me God and let it be for your glory. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. Please change my heart help me crush my iniquity in Jesus name I pray amen. thank you all you’ve read this far. I’m tired of going into the same routines. I haven’t even been reading my word as much. I started this new job and I’ll promise. I’m gonna put God first. I’m reading the word on my phone when I get time for all my lunch break if I remember in a part of me will be like no let’s play a game on my phone instead and I’m like no we’re not gonna do that. We’re gonna read so that helps. I’ve been playing kingdom come deliverance 2. and I know there is some stuff in that but I thought if I could avoid it, it wouldn’t tempt me well decent intrusive thoughts come back and I don’t want them at all so I’m gonna either cut that game off completely if it is so, God‘s will I’ll absolutely do it cause I don’t want anything. That’ll take me away from him and I don’t wanna choose the things in that game if it’s OK with God for me to play it that’ll tempt me or give me those images or show inappropriate things cause there’s literally ways you can avoid all that so I’m praying on it cause I don’t want anything. That’s gonna take me away from him so I surrender it all you God, tell me what to do. I’m gonna do it and let your will be done in my life on earth that is in heaven. my entire life I’ve been looking for love and all the wrong places. I think I get it from my mom I mean she’s just had a loser after loser for boyfriends and that’s what I was doing in high school just dating girls just because I thought they are pretty and thought hey just cause they’re pretty. Maybe they’re nice and I never even considered God into it. I’d say I believed in Jesus, but I didn’t do it. I wasnt a real Christian, but God put a good loving woman in my life two years ago, March 4 Makes two years now and I feel like every time I fall he’s gonna take her away which if he did does, he’s absolutely just if I had a heart attack right now God is just and he is my king and whatever comes to me I deserve but I know he loves me and doesn’t wanna punish me. He wants me to repent and come back to him and use my life for him and his plan. He’s powerful and loving and majestic just praise him all the time and then I’ll get my own my hearts intrests like I wanna play the Xbox I wanna watch this or that and I’ll crucify my flesh by denying myself and surrendering it to God I need to fast with me being at work a bunch of physical labor. and I have to eat in order to have energy but there’s other ways I can fast I just wanna know what you all think really need your prayers and I need to not lean on my own understanding and lean on him and his word. He’s such a good God and such a pure and majestic king, our Lord and Savior, and I’m sorry for hurting him. I wish I never did it. I’d Cut off my hands if He wanted me to, but he still has mercy on us. I love him. I wanna show it if you’ve even made it this far thank you it’s just rambling of a crazy person. Our brother sisters of Christ. I just I don’t know. Pray for me guys please cause with God I can do it, but I’m just so tired of choosing it. I’m sick and tired of it and I just wanna throw up. I hate it. I just wish I could puke and it would be out of me. I just all this sin and nastiness and wrongness. I want it out, I know the Holy Spirit loves me because he guided me and I’m tired of grieving him and hurting him. He is so good so father I’m sorry. Help me. I love you Lord and I want to give you my all I’m so sorry in Jesus mighty majestic name I pray amen

Yeah honestly I just lost the fire completely. It's just gone and I'm scared now, I think. My prayers are empty, and going to church is boring. Fasting is "too hard" for me I always say. I dunno what to do, but I'm feeling neutral, almost like I'm fine with it, and that's the part I'm scared of. Honestly, might be falling away soon, and I would like to say I hate it, but I honestly don't. I know I'm never too far gone to come to the Lord, but I know he'll come unexpectedly. Uhh guys what do I do

I am not ok, that's the easiest way to put it. Firstly, lack of testimony. Telling someone I just came to Christ and things got harder is never a good thing to tell unbelievers. Secondly, I still have doubts about myself, my belief, and my salvation. "Do I believe?" "Can I really do this?" I honestly don't feel like going on with Christianity and I know with evidence of Christ, I know for sure God is real and me walking away is eternal damnation. I just doubt that I accepted Jesus. Even if I did, I would say "I forgot to say this, and it was important, time to repent again" Thirdly, I was baptized when I was 8-9. I doubt I was serious, and according to mark 16, you have to "believe and be baptized" (mark 16:16) but honestly, I'm a huge introvert, and once you know me personally, I become an extrovert. I can't do anything in front of a bunch of people without being very embarrassed. I fear I'm going to hell and I can't feel that peace that passes all understanding. I can't guarantee I'll stay a Christian, and that terrifies me. With all the experience I have with free will, I'd rather be enslaved and forced to believe than have free will and have the possibility to walk away. Then the last one and worst one, I HATE my feelings. One day I feel saved and get lazy, the next day, I fast and "get right with God" I hate my feelings and wish I was a robot. I feel this and feel that. If anybody can pray for me, that'd be cool. I guess you could call this a cry for help, idk tho. God bless.