Attachment · Spiritual Rebels

Attachment

I lay this here for someone to pick up. I left something that was more than a relationship 2 months ago. Something that lasted 9 years. I could have bared more, but what was to come of it I dare not feed anymore. I had been through a lot with this wonderful soul, but we become corrupt. This corruption bled into every avenue of our lives, and I became something of a monster. Arguing was a piece of our daily routine, no matter how big or small. I allowed rage to consume my being, in which only reinforced the negativity already present. After many repeated cycles, I finally made the decision to put an end to the damage we were causing to ourselves and the things we love dearly around us. Now, even though I know in my soul I made the correct decision, my mind is plagued with the "what if". What if I could just run back and everything be okay? What if we understand how to be now? But after playing all of the memories back in my mind (good and bad), I return myself back to the truth. This is my attachment. I realized that my mind, body, and soul have been so used to the presence of a relationship, family, and purpose. Now I know the pulls calling me back to comfort and familiarity are the side effects. Similar to breaking a habit you've done for a long time. I wanted to share this in hopes it might help those who have trouble grasping their own attachments. Our minds will try to do this every time we make choice to turn away from something you've tolerated so long, even though you know the pain that comes with it. Much love to you all 💜

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