I really resonate with this post, thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your insights. Sometimes it can feel that in the process of forgiving a situation or a person that caused you pain - it diminishes the feelings of the person the pain was directed towards. I agree that the blame should not be put on you and I want to affirm that it wasn't your fault and that you are deserving of compassion and love. Something that really helped me when I had a memory recall of a childhood trauma, was to recognise the ways that I can take my power back now. When I was a child, I did not have control, I was not able to advocate for myself, but it is empowering to know that I can do that now. I find myself wondering why things happen the way that they do (in life in general) I am trying to look at things from a different perspective and see if I can find a reason for remembering the memory. Without going into too much detail, I set the intention to figure out why I didn't feel safe in my body and then I had a vision where my body was violated. Even though I am sad that it happened and that my body remembered the pain. I know that there has to be a higher meaning, even if it is as simple as breaking a cycle or taking ownership of how I show up in the world now. Remember, when you are forgiving, it is not about that person, it is about your inner journey and connecting to peace again. If it helps, look at it from the perspective of forgiving the unconscious (generally speaking) in others instead of a specific person. I believe the rest will come. Much Love x

I am celebrating the feelings of light that you are feeling right now. thank you for sharing and I am so proud of you for letting go of guilt ✨