My insight is that I no longer need to be a fixer. I learned to let go of this pattern and just stay in my energy. I just listen let it be. I fully embrace my dark energy. Whenever the old pattern tries to take over I quickly smack it away. I recognize it, appreciate, laugh about it and shift quickly into my desired timeframe. I am grateful to have done it with you all. I thank everyone for the connection, the support you gave me. Thank you @Aaron Doughty for providing all the tools.

I learned from today that I need to let go of the version that accepts crumbs. This version that associated giving crumbs that this is being treated as a priority. At least she thought it is better than nothing. Her nervous system stayed calm for a long time despite this treatment. But the older she got she understood something is wrong here. She ignored the sadness, the anger, disappointment. I learned that I got a pattern of negotiating, finding excuses why I only deserve the bare minimum. I never thought about how to get out of this pattern for good!!?? Right now I know for me having the awareness and being able to say it without judgement is everything. My affirmation is " I will never let myself shrink again, I let the experience be as it is. Even if is empty or fulfilling." I leave it as follows: I imagine a life where I do not look / wait or have to decode the signs. I am just here. That is why I booked this challenge in the first place. I am grateful that I could finally draw in my desired blueprint without tip toeing around it. I just realized that work wise I am operating from a healed blueprint. I always thought it would phase out to my personal life. I guess this version I entertained wanted to be heard and be acknowledged. I did it now!

I am now blending in with my new identity. My word is law; my positive thoughts / actions are command.

I also did the longer breathwork as I wanted to shift the stuck energy. I was able again to experience that I got emotional but I did not have to suffer through it. I was able to to see the person that influenced me the most and let them know that it is time to go for good. That I forgave him. And that I am not ashamed to walk away plus stay away. Whenever I feel that pattern being in the background I no longer see it as weakness / I see it as a sign I do something right. Clearly this person wants to stay stuck there. I even told him you can stay stuck. By saying that I recognized that there is a version of me that allows me to play that role for him. I no longer available for this. "This is it" as MJ said 😀

Sorry I’m late! Hi my name is Liz, from Seoul, South Korea. I intend to love someone straight and also get loved straight, breaking my old patterns. Cheers x