Something happened last weekend that made me realise I have little control when it comes to alcohol and can no longer drink it. Unintentional drinking and possibly got spiked. It reminded me of what @Jim Ebbelaar said about when he quit the excesses and his life was elevated. I really want to feel the joy of life and whilst I have alcohol waiting in the wings to take me down, I am not sure it’s possible. So it’s just time to “Choose Life” as they say. Anyone else had a similar epiphany? I’m not scared of being sober now, I’m excited for the next chapter and probably need to start brewing kombucha again.

I feel like I’ve spent most of my life on a sleep-improvement world tour. I’ve been through the UK sleep specialists at Guy’s Hospital, completed all the CBT-i courses, and I’m on prescription melatonin. At one point they did a polysomnography and told me my brainwaves were so busy all night they’d “never quite seen anything like it before.” Apparently ADHD brains like to host a midnight rave. My total sleep - 19 minutes! They hadn't seen that before in a dark room with zero stimulus... My issue isn’t getting to sleep — it’s staying asleep. Classic maintenance insomnia. The ironic bit is that my sleep efficiency is about 98% because I’m so deprived that when I do sleep, my body clings to it like a lifeboat. During CBTi treatment (which the hospital said was the worst thing the doctor could have advised me to do) I was prevented from lying down at all in the day and actually went to sleep standing up! So yes, I completely agree with Jim that sleep is the key to everything. If only following the advice automatically unlocked the result! Sometimes listening to seminars about sleep can feel a bit like being told to “just relax” while your brain is juggling flaming bowling pins. If anyone else is in the “I’m doing all the right things and still awake at 3am” club, please tell me your story. I promise strong empathy and absolutely zero judgement. ❤️

Anyone experienced fear of picking up the phone? any tips how to overcome the anxiety?

I’m hoping to find the tools to Aid me be a better version of myself. One that can follow through and execute my ambitions.

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