As we are on the final day of 2025, it was certainly a difficult year and I faced a lot of adversity, but it was all worth it because it was essential for my growth as a man of God and I was able to accomplish a lot of things this year. That’s why this year was a great one. As we are about to begin 2026, I don’t necessarily have quote-on-quote New Year’s resolutions/goals, because I do not want to jinx myself and burn out and mess up. At this point, I shall continue to focus on weekly goals and strive to achieve those every week so that I can make it reasonable and stay consistent and steadfast. The weekly goals I have now and the ones I will continue to have throughout each week will be essential for this year as a whole, so I shall continue to take it one day/week at a time to remain consistent. These goals are to: • Strengthen my relationship with God through constant prayer and deeper meditation on His word • Work out hard in the gym 5-6 days a week • Eat a healthy diet, consuming in reasonable portions for every meal • Work hard in college/work for success and advancements • Improve relationships with people that will support you with goals, including my brothers in Christ in here • Consume valuable entertainment that will aid in personal, spiritual, and career growth (reading, sports documentaries, finding my purpose, etc.) • Get proper rest at each night to ensure consistency and motivation Many of these good habits I have incorporated, and I shall continue to incorporate them one by one as time goes on. Especially since I had gotten into the book of Job, I am already experiencing the impact of the book, relating to His story and to know that I shall remain faithful in the Lord, no matter how difficult the road gets. Doing this will help me power through and to achieve success in anything I set out to do, and all this is possible with God. Especially since the enemy is tempting me to get off track and going in the wrong direction, I must make sure to remain steadfast and not allow myself to get distracted and give into temptation.

I haven’t been happy for one minute in my entire life. I push everyone away because they don’t deserve to be miserable like me. I am such an abortion. It’s insane how not a day goes by when I wish I hadn’t been born. All my teachers and bullies and antagonizers were right all along. I was never a good person. I totally overestimated my ability to believe the BS that I could be worth a damn in this beautiful world. Everyone has had enough of my nonsense, including myself. Happy new year.

Happy Monday to you all! As we begin this new week and as we inch closer to the new year, it is time to dedicate my time to growing into the man of God that He made me to be. I will do this by really denying myself and become more obedient towards Christ. So I shall engage in activities that will challenge me to another level, to break out of my comfort zone and to really grow closer to God. From Proverbs 1:7 - “Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, fools despise wisdom and discipline” Abiding by this verse will get me to focus on becoming obedient towards Christ and to lock in and do whatever He wants me to do. That’s why along with devotion to prayer and meditation on the word, and my fitness and nutrition protocol, I shall do further discovery into my character from God and to know how to live my purpose every day. With that being said, I shall apply for summer internships in sports and land the best opportunity possible for growth as a man who lives out his purpose. Doing these things will help me to serve God better and doing my part to serve others well will make it so that I do quality work for God and others. Plus, with beginning to study the Book of Job, I know doing this will help me to live a more disciplined and purposeful life that God wants us to live, so I am excited to share verses and the impacts that the Book of Job has on me through every verse and chapter I dive into. Committing my time to doing these activities will allow me to have a fulfilled week and a strong start to 2026, so I shall lock in with these things and to resist any temptations that will bring me away from the path. It’s time to get to work and to become that disciplined man living out his purpose from God! May God Bless you all and have a great week🕊️🙏🏻💗✝️

I hope you’re all doing well. Let me just preface this with saying that I’m not trying to look for attention when I make this post, and this isn’t a suicidal plea or anything like that. Unlike my previous post, this is just an epiphany that I got today. My life is never going to get better. I know it’s never ever going to get better. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I’m going to hell and there’s nothing I can do about it. I am alienated from my family. I have no friends. I have no career. I have no future here or there or anywhere. I have no leverage. I’ve been a complete disappointment my whole entire life. It took me 24 years to realize that I’m a mistake. God, I just wish I had never been born. I’m never going to amount to anything. I’m a coward. I’m a piece of crap. I deserve to be alone for the rest of my life. If anyone reads this, please cherish your life as much as you can and don’t screw up like I did. I hope you all have a happy new year and enjoy your holidays.

Hello everyone , I wanted to show y'all my sobriety challenge results for now I fell into the habit 2 times , but the days I've stayed sober are more than the days that I fell back off . And this is something I want to celebrate today 🩷