Happy Monday to you all! As we begin this new week and as we inch closer to the new year, it is time to dedicate my time to growing into the man of God that He made me to be. I will do this by really denying myself and become more obedient towards Christ. So I shall engage in activities that will challenge me to another level, to break out of my comfort zone and to really grow closer to God. From Proverbs 1:7 - “Fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, fools despise wisdom and discipline” Abiding by this verse will get me to focus on becoming obedient towards Christ and to lock in and do whatever He wants me to do. That’s why along with devotion to prayer and meditation on the word, and my fitness and nutrition protocol, I shall do further discovery into my character from God and to know how to live my purpose every day. With that being said, I shall apply for summer internships in sports and land the best opportunity possible for growth as a man who lives out his purpose. Doing these things will help me to serve God better and doing my part to serve others well will make it so that I do quality work for God and others. Plus, with beginning to study the Book of Job, I know doing this will help me to live a more disciplined and purposeful life that God wants us to live, so I am excited to share verses and the impacts that the Book of Job has on me through every verse and chapter I dive into. Committing my time to doing these activities will allow me to have a fulfilled week and a strong start to 2026, so I shall lock in with these things and to resist any temptations that will bring me away from the path. It’s time to get to work and to become that disciplined man living out his purpose from God! May God Bless you all and have a great week🕊️🙏🏻💗✝️

I hope you’re all doing well. Let me just preface this with saying that I’m not trying to look for attention when I make this post, and this isn’t a suicidal plea or anything like that. Unlike my previous post, this is just an epiphany that I got today. My life is never going to get better. I know it’s never ever going to get better. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I’m going to hell and there’s nothing I can do about it. I am alienated from my family. I have no friends. I have no career. I have no future here or there or anywhere. I have no leverage. I’ve been a complete disappointment my whole entire life. It took me 24 years to realize that I’m a mistake. God, I just wish I had never been born. I’m never going to amount to anything. I’m a coward. I’m a piece of crap. I deserve to be alone for the rest of my life. If anyone reads this, please cherish your life as much as you can and don’t screw up like I did. I hope you all have a happy new year and enjoy your holidays.

Hello everyone , I wanted to show y'all my sobriety challenge results for now I fell into the habit 2 times , but the days I've stayed sober are more than the days that I fell back off . And this is something I want to celebrate today 🩷

Having survived the worst year of my entire life, I’ve had a lot of time to think about the kind of person I’m becoming and the specific areas I need to work on to get there. Taking that into account, how does one maneuver through loneliness, especially during a time that’s supposed to be cheerful and euphoric, i.e., the holidays and Christmas? Anybody is welcome to weigh in. I would love to know your thoughts.

Hey all, I did fall again last night and that was not how I wanted to end Christmas Day, as I relied too much on motivation and emotions and I allowed that to cloud my focus and obedience with Jesus, and that’s why I gave in. But I know I have been making significant progress as I had spent more quality time with Jesus and I did some things that would help me become a better man for the Lord, and this is why I had a streak going. This is a vital lesson for me because it is that time to make the proper adjustments as this is the indicator that I really must put God first and not allow anything else to interfere with that deeper relationship with Him. I have all the resources to keep going and to keep following Jesus and I must maintain that strong focus on Him and the mission He has for me. This definitely stuck with me as I had been doing the wrong thing last night, and thankfully, I didn’t ejaculate as a result, as I shall stick with the retention and not only that, but I shall use that testosterone to build onto becoming that man that God created me to be. If any of you have suggestions on what I shall focus on moving forward, I am open to them. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and that everyone has a strong start to 2026. The best is yet to come for not only myself, but for all of us, so let’s do this! You guys have a blessed weekend and I will talk to y’all soon! God Bless🕊️🙏🏻💗❤️✝️