As today is Monday, we begin a new week as it is about continuing with the same protocol as before and making a few changes. Last week, I had incorporated more time with the Lord via prayer and meditation on the word, taking the time to connect with Jesus and allowing Him to guide me on a daily basis. At the same time, I was able to increase fitness and nutrition protocols as well, and I was able to do some other personal development work for myself as well. I was really successful with these things, as I had been doing well since being on winter break at home. Now, it is time to make those advancements by putting a schedule together every day ensuring that these habits will stick with me in every season of my life. The main thing is that I must become more self-sufficient and confident independently, as when I live by myself. I must build up that spiritual strength in this area so that I do not go in the wrong direction in seasons where I’m independent. Therefore, I cannot allow myself to become too idle all the time because this is where the enemy will tempt me to go the wrong direction and I will end up in the same cycle. I have received this warning when I was tempted the last couple of days, and this was the sign that I need to make some adjustments to do better. This is why I must prevent this by strengthening my soul and maintain a stronger relationship with Jesus Christ, carrying out the mission He has for me all the time and stay focused all throughout. Plus, I shall carry on with the habits that I have now and work harder in the things that will benefit my development as a man living for God all the time. This week is kind of a short week due to Christmas this week, but this week is no different from any other week, as I must continue on following God and do things that glorify Him all the time, as it is my mission to serve God well and serve others the same way I serve Jesus and that He serves us on a daily basis. Therefore, I shall continue with my protocol with serving the Lord, taking the time to connect with Jesus via prayer and meditation on the word, and carry on with fitness and nutrition and personal development work and implement these into a daily schedule, working on becoming the powerful, independent man that I can be on a daily basis.

Hey y’all, I am definitely facing temptations right now, so I would appreciate your prayers at this time. Thank you and God Bless🙏🏻💗

To be honest, life is a lot better and worth living when I have everything under control. But this vice that has beleaguered me for over 10 years is not something that seems to want to be contained anytime soon, and to make matters worse, it looks like it’s commandeering the already-sinking ship that I’m in (For those of you who are reading this and have been long-time subscribers to Shimon Davis’s YouTube channel, you probably know what I’m referring to). God is my witness as He is my anchor. I fail Him each day as I did from when I entered this planet. To fix myself from the inside out will take a lot of coming to terms with things about me that make me ugly. They are my addiction, my insecurities, my transgressions, my past mistakes, my worries and fears, my physical appearance, my dwindling intellect, my unemployment, my bleak future, and my pathetic excuses for not being what I’m supposed to be. I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. I need a sign. I need a miracle. I need something. I need to know that this isn’t as good as it gets. I need something to prove to me that I’m not a mistake. As everything is moving at a snail’s pace, I can’t help thinking about the gravity of the situation that I’m in. It just doesn’t seem to matter to anyone whether I’m succeeding or failing in life; they’re just happy to have a useful idiot like me as a side character in their life stories. But you know what? It’s okay. I may not have what it takes to do remarkable things in life. For all I know, I might be destined to die alone. But until that happens, I’m going to spend the rest of my sorry existence, doing one thing that nobody can teach, and that’s to show kindness and respect to people, even when they don’t deserve it. That way, when I die, I may stake some sort of claim to eternal peace. Thank you so much for reading. You’re all truly wonderful people. May God bless each and every single one of my brothers and sisters here.

Hey everybody:), how are you guys? I do have a question but I’d also like to know how everyone is and if yall just wanna chat with me about it in the comments. My question is do you guys think dreams can become real or is it a waste of time? I wanted to ask you guys this because I wanna see if other people still “believe” like in dreams and hope and stuff like that. To be completely honest, I ask because I’m not in a good place (I’ll try not to trigger anyone but I have been getting bad thoughts and I think I’m depressed but idk fs😂tbh), and jus to be clear im not looking for any pity or anything cus ik we all struggle and ik im not alone (even when is hard to believe at times). Idk guys is jus tbh I jus lost hope In everything rn and I spiraled and I jus feel very stuck in my life rn and look I still have goals but😂idk if I should still try to go after them because like for this whole month I’ve felt like a huge weight of doubt (like physically I feel heavy on my chest and mentally) as well spiritually, I lost touch with God a lot and I feel bad but at the same time idk if he’s the one that jus doesn’t want me to succeed, I tried to do stuff about it but most of the time something goes wrong (either out of my control or cus of me) 😂Yea well I’m in a very tough spot and almost everyday I contemplate even living anymore but yk I’m still here to write this cus God keeps waking me up for some reason I’m not sure why… Anyways, If anybody read til the end I really appreciate it and sorry for rambling I jus kinda wanted to be honest and raw (to you guys & myself) and admit that there’s something wrong and be real for a moment. To conclude, I jus wanna remind you guys that I’m not asking for pity or attention or whatever😂I jus wanted to write all this cus I jus wanted some weight off my chest and also because I wanna talk to some quality people about this topic to see if dreams can still be possible despite the hardest of circumstances and I’m curious to know how yall are and what you think about this, either way i hope whoever read to the end has a good day/night and jus whenever you have free time, we can hang on the comments, seeyou guys:).

As today is Saturday capping off an amazing week, I have done great things to fulfill the week. I had grown closer to Jesus through prayer and diving deeper into His word, I confessed my sins and He forgave them, and I had remained with the Lord throughout the week to do some great things. As a result, I had incorporated a good amount of physical activity and had generally eaten better. Plus, I was able to do some work on myself via personal growth courses on here and other sources. Although for the end of the week, I kinda got distracted and I had left my mind idol, giving the enemy access to lead me down a path that I don’t want to be on. But, I held my ground and did my best to stay on the correct path and I ran to God for help to stay on track. Ultimately, it’s a good thing that I am identifying these things now and taking note of them, as the more I do this, the more I can adjust to make the path clearer towards Jesus. All the more, if I am going to make 2026 a successful year, I must do what I can to deny myself, strengthen my soul, and do the quality service for God to fulfill the mission the Lord has for me on a daily basis. With that being said, I shall continue to take it one day at a time and make wise choices all the time and to avoid slumping. Therefore, I shall pick back up my cross, follow Jesus and persevere. It’s go time! May God Bless you all and stay prayed up🕊️🙏🏻💗❤️✝️