This year has been the absolute worst. Multiple refusals on my work permit. Crippling loneliness. Relapse after relapse after relapse on PMO. I regained all the weight I lost over the summer. I’m a few days away from being deported from Canada. My sleep and diet have gone down the sewer. I’ve been having suicidal ideations over the past two days. Nothing’s going right. If anyone reads this, don’t fuck your life up the way I did. I’m a loser, but you’re not. Keep chasing your dreams and you’ll get there. As for me, the road’ll take my worthless ass wherever it damn well pleases. Peace.

Chasing my dream of being an artist! Hope everyone is good and chasing their dreams as well. ☮️✌️

If I were to host a zoom meeting, would you come? What would you want to talk about? How would you like it structured? What days and times work best for you? I, like most, joined this community because we seek not just instruction, guidance, or connection, but environment, and it is not lacking, but I'd love to see some more talking within the group especially through a zoom setting, even if it's just a how is your day. We are surrounded by like-minded individuals let's start hearing from them. So, let me know what you think, answer the questions above, and let's see what we can do about it.

Hey guys, ik we haven’t talked in a while so I hope you guys are doing well and if not I hope things get better and ik your a strong one and you can do it:). Anyways, I feel like for most of my life I’ve struggled to trust people and ik where it comes from, mainly my family, people I’ve met (I would say friends but I don’t consider anybody a friend for a while) and sometimes my bf. Is just been a really hard thing to do especially right now with how things are in the world. Is just something struggle with and I just know if you guys relate or have some advice. At least as of rn, I’m learning how to trust myself again and God so I feel like is a good start. Later I might be either going to college or being homeless (I mean is a big chance but I’m not sure)😂so I feel like with either situation trust is something I wanna learn at least with myself. I’d love to hear your guys thoughts about this:)❤️.

Nowadays, being constantly stressed and always being in fight-or-flight mode has become normalized. But having a mind that is at peace is the best gift that you can give to yourself. It's unrealistic to think that you will always have peace of mind, but the times that you are at peace with yourself are the best.