Today is sunny and windy outside, as I was sitting outside I looked at the sky. I contemplated how beautiful it is and it made me realized that I haven’t really had the time to enjoy the little things of life lately. I am still trying to adjust to being back at work that by the end of the day I feel mentally exhausted. Now I understand how wearing masks out in the world can be tiring. I’m taking it day by day and today I will end my day with compassion. I bought a deck of cards to help me stay in the now and this is the card I pulled out.

Today, I have spent time connecting with people. Especially those I love and care about. Today, it hasn't been just about me. I've contacted an old friend in her 80's. We had great chat and I'm going to visit her to fix some technical things on her TV. I contacted my friend, who just lost his wife after a long illness and let him know that I'm going to show up for him and he doesn't need a mask with me and he got it and we chatted back and forth. We're catching up in the next week. I messaged my favourite cousin for a catch up. I messaged two different friends on the same c'van trip, that I was meant to go on. I asked them to keep asking me to join them (Great advice from Toni) One of them replied "that they will never stop asking but when I'm ready we'll have a great time". I organised dinner with a good friend for this Thursday. I've applied for a job as a pathology collector that a friend, who is the regional manager has earmarked for me and holding it for me. 8am to 12 noon, 3 days a week. Perfect opportunity me to get back in the working world. Today, I'm grateful. As hard as it is watching Eileen slowly declining, she would want me to try, to live. I'm not saying that I won't fall in a hole from time to time but today is a good day ♥️

Leaving soon for Walk for Multiple Sclerosis! I was thinking this morning,the walks are a lot like our group.Because everyone there cares,understands and supports each other! “GO TEAM JOEY!” Everyone have a great day and hang in there my friends!

deleted my last post because, if I’m being honest, I’m really struggling right now. I’ve never been someone who opens up—I’ve spent so long keeping everything in and dealing with things on my own. Now that I’m finally starting to open that door, it feels overwhelming. I’m trying to make sense of nearly 23 months of emotions I’ve buried, and it’s hitting me all at once. I don’t fully understand what I’m feeling yet, and that’s hard. When I said “see you on the flip side,” I meant it as “see you later,” not anything more than that. I’ve realised that when things get heavy, I tend to distance myself while I try to process everything in my own head. It’s just how I cope, even if I’m still learning how to handle it better.

I heard an analogy that said your life is like being on a train…. You are the train. Your life is the track. And everyone you meet is either stepping on for a moment, riding a few stations, or staying all the way to the end. Not everyone is meant to make the full journey with you and that’s not failure… that’s design. Some people arrive, shift something, love in a way that leaves a mark…and then they go. Others stay longer through seasons, through change, through versions of you that are still unfolding. And a very few… those rare, sacred souls… become your forever passengers. But here’s the part that doesn’t get talked about enough… Sometimes you look up and realize you’re on the wrong train. The wrong direction. The wrong people. The wrong version of yourself. And still… you stay. Because it’s familiar. Because it’s comfortable. Because stepping off feels uncertain. But the truth is stay on the wrong train too long, and getting home will cost you more than you planned. Time. Energy. Pieces of yourself. And the beautiful part? It’s never too late. Never too late to pivot. To change direction. To choose a different track. So when you feel it… that quiet pull… that knowing you can’t explain but can’t ignore trust it. Because the strength it takes to step off… to walk away… to stand alone on the platform for a moment… is the same strength that has carried you this far. Take a second and really see it…. the resilience, the courage, the ability to keep going even when it felt impossible. There are things you’ve already survived that should have stopped you. There are places you’ve already rebuilt that were completely broken. And never mistake the person who chooses peace as someone unskilled at war. That kind of peace is earned. Every quiet win… every unseen moment you chose to keep going… it all counts. It always has. So keep moving. Keep trusting the track that’s meant for you. Because you are stronger than you realize… and this journey every stop, every detour, every restart