Just wanted to share this moment with you guys ❤️

Exactly a year and a half ago at about this time, my beautiful daughter was taking her last breaths. I'm finding it hard to breathe myself tonight..Reality crashing in. The weight dragging me down to my darkest thoughts and questions. Panic attack threatening to take me out.How did 18 months pass in the blink of an eye?? I stood still while the world around me. But I wasnt stuck. I had found hope in Toni... in the people who befriended me and welcomed me with open arms even on my darkest days... while lifetime friends were shutting their blinds, hopping i didn't" call on them". Even though I felt like my head was spinning, I was given a purpose, which I am so thankful for. I am still clawing my way out of the dark but I now know why I'm still here and didn't simply break. I had friends here who helped me find my scattered pieces. I had Toni to be the."gold" mending all my broken edges together again. She is an amazing coach, incredible teacher, inspirational mentor, deeply loved friend and cherished family member. I have things to look forward to and a reason to get up each day. So even if tonight the silence is so loud it's deafening and my covers feel like cement pushing down on me... i know the sun will rise tomorrow and me with it (hopefully). I know that even though I will always feel this empty hole in my chest, I can still fill my life with love and beauty. It's just so dang hard to not feel guilty about even wanting that for myself. But with friends like all of you... who GET IT... I am quite sure I'll be able to continue standing. And I know if I fall, you willl be there to catch me. 💜🩵

Even when everything feels at its darkest, something steady is still there, quietly shining. The Moon doesn’t stop existing just because we can’t always see its full light—it goes through phases, just like we do.

Hello everyone. I did my first virtual meeting here last night with Eliza. It was so helpful and healing to share a space with other people who are navigating grief. I lost my husband to suicide almost 2 months ago now so I am new to this type of grief. But it helped me to know that there is a community here that is so supportive. I will try to attend more meetings as they fit my schedule. I just wanted to share my appreciation ❤️