Let’s see if I can stick with doing this every day. As promised to the group, posting it on Skool. 1. I am amazing because… I am creative, I am making efforts to follow through on my promises & commitments, and I am on day 17 of no junk food binges. 2. I am grateful… to live indoors, to have a community of people in my life that I can turn to when I’m struggling, and for my music. 3. My vision for the day: I will be kind to myself and others. I will not succumb to fear and self-judgement. I will go to my meeting, pick up some supplies to keep myself nourished in preparation for the upcoming storm, and I will do something creative at home (practice guitar, write music, draft ideas for a video series I’m thinking about making…)

As of tomorrow I will be 7 days clean off of weed 🫡 I told my best friend I’m trying to quit and he was supportive. Time to tell the rest of my friends 👍🏻

Had a conversation with my dad last night, which meant I was on speaker and mom was also in earshot. He expressed concern for me having little direction in life and not thinking in the long term. This was hard to hear partially because I know it’s true to a degree, but it’s not something I want to internalize right now because it’s not helpful. Mom heard him say this and chimed in to my defense. Altogether the talk was productive, though, and I came away with ideas of some other steps I can take in the direction of continuing my education and getting new skills. The reality is I’ve been living in a state of financial insecurity for almost 4 years now and it’s affected every area of my life. I look forward to the peace of not having to worry so much about money, but I’m dreading the process it would take to get there. I also know my parents genuinely care and want me to be happy, but I simultaneously resent their involvement. In terms of my mild, medium, and spicy goals: - Mild: Make my bed right after waking up. Apart from a day or two where I’ve had to do laundry or run an errand, I’ve made my bed after waking up every day - Medium: Spend one hour applying to jobs. I’ve applied to two jobs this week. - Spicy: Get 10k steps a day. I’ve averaged between 8-9k steps most days this week.