3 days in a row now. A streak emerges. Will he keep it up?? Stay tuned. 1. I am amazing because… I’m facing some social fears and asking for help with a creative project, I’m dragging my butt to the gym today, I am willing to lend an ear to listen to those who need one. 2. I am grateful for… access to drinkable water, breathing that isn’t obstructed by the shit I used to shove up my nose, and the sunlight. 3. My vision for the day… I will get a solid workout in. I will call some people. I will do some more planning for the project I want to work on. I will go to my friend’s anniversary meeting. I will be kind and loving to myself and to others. Hoping to hear back from a job that I interviewed for this week. Getting a little antsy. Accepting the possibility that I may not get it. If I don’t, I’ll likely be disappointed. So I want to prepare for what I can do to keep moving a search for new opportunities in spite of a setback.

Okay. Still gonna try to stick to this. 1. I am amazing because… I’m a team player at work, I’m considerate of others, and I‘m attempting to keep the streak going with this (even though it’s only day 2…) 2. I am grateful… for heat, for music, for the relationships I have with my friends in recovery, for Doug coming onto the chat yesterday and chopping it up about music for a bit. 3. My vision for the day: I will make the phone calls I need to make. I will make a list of my goals for this week. I will practice music. I will be unafraid. I will be strong. I’m struggling a little bit today because I don’t like having to isolate due to the blizzard. I’ve had some success over the past two weeks getting out of the house, socializing, walking a lot, and generally not wasting away in bed. I’m afraid of falling back into that habit today. I would like to find some way to be productive even though my mind/body/spirit feels confined in my apartment.

Let’s see if I can stick with doing this every day. As promised to the group, posting it on Skool. 1. I am amazing because… I am creative, I am making efforts to follow through on my promises & commitments, and I am on day 17 of no junk food binges. 2. I am grateful… to live indoors, to have a community of people in my life that I can turn to when I’m struggling, and for my music. 3. My vision for the day: I will be kind to myself and others. I will not succumb to fear and self-judgement. I will go to my meeting, pick up some supplies to keep myself nourished in preparation for the upcoming storm, and I will do something creative at home (practice guitar, write music, draft ideas for a video series I’m thinking about making…)

As of tomorrow I will be 7 days clean off of weed 🫡 I told my best friend I’m trying to quit and he was supportive. Time to tell the rest of my friends 👍🏻