You know what, Jamie said to post positives and even negative stuff. So here goes.... I feel like jelly on a plate that's getting shaken. My head this last couple of days is pretty scrambled. My cycle is due (hormones are a b**ch), and I know I feel so much level headed after. But I'll be honest, this last few days has been a struggle. I'm feeling sad from the funeral on Tuesday despite rekindling a friendship. The "phrase, sticks and stones may break my bones"; well I've usually got a thick skin, but coupled with the funeral and hormones, some words this week that have been thrown really and are really cutting deep. And I'm struggling to shift the low mood. I'm still doing my macros, my steps, my exercise. I'm distracting myself with other things and really getting stuck into the time with the kids and that makes me so happy. I even bought myself flowers. But alone time at the minute just feels that much harder. Rather than feeling good and strong in the gym, I'm feeling inadequate, I have imposter syndrome and starting to doubt myself and my confidence is rocked so I feel I've gone into my shell. And why? All because of a bit of emotion, hormones and some words... I feel silly posting this, as I'm usually able to pivot but today feels like a struggle.

My 12yr old son didn't wanna talk to me because I said I wont drive him an hr to see his girlfriend so I went for a walk. These boots aren't made for walking unless they just don't like me lol

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Been for a nice walk this afternoon i was 1 to 1 last night at work so I only got 1000 steps in so after sleep and stuff i got my trainers on and went walkies loving the smell of cow 💩 on the way my dad always opened the car windows when we were younger and say breath it in clear your lungs now i do the same 🤣

I currently attend a council gym, the positives are it is close by and I know the layout. The negatives are equipment is also broken, currently 3 machines are out of order, there is no parking (but I can walk there), the water cooler has been broken for around 2 months, it can get very busy and is laid out poorly and they just recently banned taking in bags. I have found a private gym near me, it's a 15 minute drive, it's much bigger, has its own car park and has a limited number of members only downside is its more expensive and slightly further away.