Setting New Goals and Standards
I feel like my brain just exploded and a whole world of possibilities just opened up for me🤯 I've been in a really sticky mental place lately. I'm slacking off in classes, I make excuses for not doing work, and I feel unmotivated overall. We had a discussion about core values today in class and while I could pinpoint important values in my life, such as self-respect, I couldn't say with 100% certainty that I committed to them everyday. Later tonight I taught my first dance class and struggled to even gain the respect of this group of 15 year olds. Which got me thinking: do I really respect myself as a performer? I tend to consider all the obstacles and achievements from my life as 'worthless', I feel embarrassed as to where I am right now in my journey, and disappointed for the times in the past I didn't fight for myself. I retreated back into my old habits as 'punishment' and lost the confidence I worked so hard to gain. But by not working hard now, I'm not respecting myself, which means I'm letting my future self down. I'm setting a strong goal for myself this week to respect myself and everything in my path right now. I started writing out my affirmations and I really feel the sun starting to creep through the clouds now. Excited to update you all next week☀️