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Hello.. here to bring you part two of ‘I’m Back and It Feels Like Home’
PART 2
I started questioning.. What are we doing? Like how is this happening that A THING like a phone can become such a great necessity that if it’s gone you’re gone.. it may spiral you into a deep depression like it did me 😢 I know l needed to get a new phone that would’ve been the answer but I was too poor I couldn’t afford a new phone my life is done even though I was still breathing like woe is me hit rock bottom hard 🤦🏽♀️
Ugh when I tell you my depression got worse 😓 all of a sudden I started beating myself up again focusing ONLY on negativity and started abusing myself… 🤦🏽♀️ emotionally I started to hate myself.. verbally I started calling myself a loser a good for nothing, a terrible person, a crumb on this earth even a tree is better than me providing oxygen for us, being a home for so many animals, giving us shade when we need it, some even offers us good food.. but me what the hell am I existing for im too poor to do anything, I'm a nothing because I’m so poor 😩 and NO WAY will I beg my family for money that will make me look even MORE pitiful 😡😤🤦🏽♀️
But then... I all ofa sudden seeing my cat how protection my cat looked woke me up 😳 "wait" I told myself "no no no no no 🤦🏽♀️ I can't do this moping around like this not good for my cat he looks depressed too 😞" I looked around.. not only did I let myself go but my home too it was in a disarray what am I doing 😱 depression means I gave up ON EVERYTHING means I’m not living im just existing. Is that really what I want? 🥺 UGH 😩 I Can’t believe I revisited this horrific dark place and it’s affecting my cat 😭"
I bounced back and told myself "I have to do something! I can’t be like this forever NO" 😤 something has got to give 🤦🏽♀️ So I decided to muster up courage to do what I did not want to do and it was to humbly beg my family for money to help me get a new phone 😰 [This concludes Part 2; please stay tune for Part 3]
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Hello.. here to bring you part two of ‘I’m Back and It Feels Like Home’
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