When my Mom transcended I began my split identity. That was 33 years ago. I was 10 years old about to turn 11 years old the next month. That moment was so painful that I disassociated and put on my cape and proceeded to save EVERYONE that I thought was in need of help. I now know that I did that because I felt like I couldn't save my Mom. As time went on, that became my other identity, saving others and putting MyCellf on the back burner. I've always had a nurturing Spirit but I did that my whole life to the point that it became my main identity. Fast forward to making the discovery of where this behavior stemmed from, I've had several encounters where I was put in that position. The main one was the next day after I made the discovery, someone was pulling at that Energy and I felt MyCellf doing it again but it was like I couldn't stop MyCellf, I fell like if I didn't help them I was letting them down. Then guess what happened.... While on the phone with them I accidentally spilt hot grease on my breast, 2nd degree burn, it's bad too. I've never done that before, I cook, cook, and I'm usually very attentive to what I'm doing. I don't even know how it happened. After that I started getting downloads about the breast being Mother/Nurturing Energy and that I was doing it again. My name also means Black Fire. The burn was a Re-Mind-Her that Mother allows, not forces. Mother allows us to learn from our own choices. I had conversations with this PerSun before and they didn't listen but now that things have gotten worse, they are back for Moor Energy and I was giving it to them. After that, I fell back so they can walk their path in their own way and I will only assist when it's necessary.

My original question was what causes a PerSun to go against what their name means besides not knowing what their name means? Example: if their name means honest beauty, why would they be a liar that treats others with terrible behavior? I seen a post that answered that question. Hu a PerSun thinks they are is Moor important than Hu we think they are. It's their own law of attraction. I received the answer to mean that they are reflecting what a PerSun needs to transmute within themselves. It's not about what we think they should be portraying but what they believe within themselves. If they have convinced themselves of their reality, it doesn't matter what we think, it's about what they think of themselves. We should take notes. They are living in their reality.

If you ever had ANY doubt that when you speak (or write), your words are not only returning back to you, but you are unconsciously using them to buy your experience. The word letter backwards says “retell”. So it’s going to come back and show you what you said. And when it does please understand that you made a “retell” (retail) purchase. However, the misunderstanding that most people have about how this works is they believe if they just change their words, they change their life. And while there is a lot of truth to that. It is not just the changing of the words that make a difference. It is what the word holds in your nervous system. In other words, what does it mean TO YOUR UNCONSCIOUS BODY?? The next level of understanding words, is understanding how your body receives them, process them, & acts them out. That is EM-BODI-MENT