When my Mom transcended I began my split identity. That was 33 years ago. I was 10 years old about to turn 11 years old the next month. That moment was so painful that I disassociated and put on my cape and proceeded to save EVERYONE that I thought was in need of help. I now know that I did that because I felt like I couldn't save my Mom. As time went on, that became my other identity, saving others and putting MyCellf on the back burner. I've always had a nurturing Spirit but I did that my whole life to the point that it became my main identity. Fast forward to making the discovery of where this behavior stemmed from, I've had several encounters where I was put in that position. The main one was the next day after I made the discovery, someone was pulling at that Energy and I felt MyCellf doing it again but it was like I couldn't stop MyCellf, I fell like if I didn't help them I was letting them down. Then guess what happened.... While on the phone with them I accidentally spilt hot grease on my breast, 2nd degree burn, it's bad too. I've never done that before, I cook, cook, and I'm usually very attentive to what I'm doing. I don't even know how it happened. After that I started getting downloads about the breast being Mother/Nurturing Energy and that I was doing it again. My name also means Black Fire. The burn was a Re-Mind-Her that Mother allows, not forces. Mother allows us to learn from our own choices. I had conversations with this PerSun before and they didn't listen but now that things have gotten worse, they are back for Moor Energy and I was giving it to them. After that, I fell back so they can walk their path in their own way and I will only assist when it's necessary.

My original question was what causes a PerSun to go against what their name means besides not knowing what their name means? Example: if their name means honest beauty, why would they be a liar that treats others with terrible behavior? I seen a post that answered that question. Hu a PerSun thinks they are is Moor important than Hu we think they are. It's their own law of attraction. I received the answer to mean that they are reflecting what a PerSun needs to transmute within themselves. It's not about what we think they should be portraying but what they believe within themselves. If they have convinced themselves of their reality, it doesn't matter what we think, it's about what they think of themselves. We should take notes. They are living in their reality.

If you ever had ANY doubt that when you speak (or write), your words are not only returning back to you, but you are unconsciously using them to buy your experience. The word letter backwards says “retell”. So it’s going to come back and show you what you said. And when it does please understand that you made a “retell” (retail) purchase. However, the misunderstanding that most people have about how this works is they believe if they just change their words, they change their life. And while there is a lot of truth to that. It is not just the changing of the words that make a difference. It is what the word holds in your nervous system. In other words, what does it mean TO YOUR UNCONSCIOUS BODY?? The next level of understanding words, is understanding how your body receives them, process them, & acts them out. That is EM-BODI-MENT

Today I was listening to a sermon and started replacing words based on what I learned in the class. 🤯🤯🤯🤯😂 I can’t unhear it and listening to sermons will never be the same.

I didn’t expect to access so much of the content so quickly. As much as I love what I’m learning, wisdom has served me the understanding that I don’t need to rush through it. I was reflecting about the “spells” I’ve casted in my own life as a result of the words I use and one of the things that came to me was a time during my junior year in high school. I was completely enamored with the show Charmed and decided to go to my local library to research witches. I simply wanted to learn. Of the books I checked out was a book of spells. Even in doing that “research” I knew the importance of good intentions. In that book of spells was one for peace. It said something about lighting a candle and repeating the words of the spell. I will never forget falling into a deep sleep after I did that ritual. This was on an afternoon after classes so it wasn’t my “norm” to nap after school. It took YEARS for me to realize what happened, and for many years beyond that, people have told me how calming my voice is, and how peaceful it is to be around me. I’m glad I chose peace that day 😂😅. I’m not done reflecting, but I just wanted to share in hopes that it would inspire someone else to go back down memory lane about the things you’ve spoken over you life, and how they have manifested. Grateful to be in a space where I can also share that freely. 💪🏾👑