Anger and the Release · The Lighthouse Project

Anger and the Release

I've built up a good barrier around anger, and that emotion gets an outward projection the most I feel. Mostly towards the customers I interact with at work. Saturday is always such a busy day for me, limited staffing... But this Saturday in particular I felt targeted, I felt like a victim, and I felt like I was going to come unglued I was so busy. Then what happens? I step in dog droppings (aka landmines) at a customers house, who was incredibly rude, I could have had smoke coming out of my ears and I wouldn't have been surprised. I brought all that emotion home with me, I was not embodied at all, short fused, and just being a jerk.

So I've spent the last 3 nights when the house is quiet meditating, listening, witnessing. I've had enough of being short tempered and an asshole. I found where this anger lives finally, my shoulders and it feels like lightning bolts shooting through my hands! Like jolts of electricity.

I used meditation 1, I've used it in the past as well. But something stuck out. Draw from the last time you were triggered to help bring up the emotion, and then drop the story and hold onto the emotion. Worked beautifully! I'm 3 days into this release of anger and I feel more comfortable and confident witnessing it.

Cheers

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