Hello, this is my first post here and it’s a long one so buckle up everyone. A little bit of context I grew up in a Christian family, albeit a broken one (parents split up at a young age). My mom and dad both were strong followers of Jesus, my mom has since lost her faith. My dad was a drug addict from his teenage years to his mid 20s and through an incredible story of redemption that I won’t get into right now he found Jesus and his life was completely changed, and anyone who knew him from back then can attest to the radical change in him. He spent many years with my mom before I was born and during my early childhood traveling all around the world spreading the good news, changing countless lives, witnessing miracles and truly living in the fullness of the gospel. He’s not by any means religious either, he just has a deep love for Jesus because of what he’s done in his life. All this to say, growing up, I have always had an understanding of who Jesus was and what he did for us when he died on the cross. Growing up around churches and religious people and being influenced by that culture has played a part in shaping my world view. As a kid I was taught that God was a separate being who loves us more than we could ever understand (our Heavenly Father) and that we as humans are inherently sinners and the only way to be free from that sin is to accept Jesus into our heart. So now, I am 20 years old and I’ve been opening myself up more spiritually and watching Rey’s videos and I’ve been learning all these new things. Like God is not some big being in the sky, but rather he is the entire universe and he is me and he is you and he is everyone. I always believed that heaven was a place and that when I died, I would ascend and “dwell in the house of the lord forever.” But now I’m hearing that I can just be in heaven right now? And if I am God then is Jesus still my Lord and savior? I’ve watched many of Rey’s videos and when I really look at his core messages, I have found that they are all true, and that they actually do lineup with the teachings of the Bible just on a much deeper level than I had ever considered before. I’ve tried sharing some of these things with my dad and he doesn’t seem to understand or be willing to understand and he’s actually advised me against watching these kinds of videos because he said they are dangerous and they’ll lead me away from the truth. I’ve refrained from sharing a lot of what I’ve learned from Rey with my dad because he is very unreceptive to it and I’m worried that he’s going to think I’m falling down the wrong path and becoming some crazy spiritual person. I’m curious what you all think about all this, and if you can help me make sense of everything, because it feels like I don’t know what to believe anymore. All I know is I really hope that everything I learned growing up about Jesus is true.

The man with whom I have three children and (still) share a flat manages my time. For eight years, more or less, I have been in a situation where my time depends on that person. He has financial problems and works a lot, but he forgets that at home there is a person who is with the children and simply wants to have a life of her own. I am almost never informed about what the day will look like, and if I ask, it usually ends in an argument. Besides, he is often aggressive towards the children (mentally, physically almost never, except for small slaps on the head or pulling their ears, what i cannot stand). Today, I suggested to him how we could deal with this so that everyone would have some free time, but he doesn't care. I am thinking about divorce, then someone else will decide when the father should take care of the children and when I should, and I will finally be able to do something, also financially. During these eight years, I have not established many deeper relationships because I was mostly at home with the children and learning to speak german, that is why i have not much help, companionship. Has anyone been through or witnessed such a situation and knows if there is any institution that can help in such situations on a legal basis without divorce? I really need stability in managing my time. Every day, I practise being present and not worrying about it so much, just being, but my nervous system has its limits. I am telling God what I need: time on my own and peace. However I am also looking for practical help so that someone will finally establish the time the father is with children. I know that it comes one day on its own, it is already coming...Much Love and many blessings:))

Yo yo guys, ive been trying to be as authentic as possible and trying to see why i act like i do in certain situations that feel un authentic , ive spotted 1 of my child hood traumas and feel 100 times better and truly feel alot of weight taken of my shoulders. I would love to here how you could work with it from here now that ive spotted what the trauma is? How do i now untie the knot fully, how have you dealt with it? Peace n Love🫶