Hey all, I'm Ruben, from the Netherlands. I've decided that I want to break through my monotonous loop of daily life. I love the time I spent with my good friends, but after that or during a work week I just sit behind my pc. I have had enough. Though I find it very hard to change this. That's why I joined a community to see and hopefully experience I'm not alone in this. I wish to learn and discover more about myself. And perhaps make some international friends along the way!

I can relate to this song, it seems really spiritual :))) how do you interprated the lyrics?https://youtu.be/2yfwePfD-iU?si=8pURnjR0p1xXXoZK. I've got the snowboard under my feet I can fly so high I can fall so deep But who do I see comin' up the track A little green man with his snowboard on his back He said: And now I'm flying like an angel to the sun My feet are burning and I grab into another world. With the lords of the boards you're come again around With the lords of the boards you're mad like a clown I can stay behind him if I can I want to be a little more than an "also-ran" Through every curb he's got me beat And maybe's time that I accept defeat And now I"m flying like an angel to the sun My feet are burning and I grab into another world

I've started meditating. I've just finished my second session. My opinion and current conclusion is as follows. I've put two and two together: You learn to just be. Until the day before yesterday, I didn't think much of meditation but I wanted to do something because I only pray now and then. The thing about prayer for me is that I have nothing to say. I believe and have faith in the Lord. In the end His will is done and He knows what I want and need and so on. That's why I can never think of anything to say and I don't really see the point in it for me. My head is always full of thoughts 24/7, and when I pray and talk to God in my head there are logically even more thoughts. And to be honest, I've had ENOUGH OF WORDS AND THOUGHTS. But with meditation it's different. You don't talk you just are. Everything is nice and calm and you detach yourself from everything. I focus on my breath or on the silence. And I think that this silence is God. I've heard often enough that you can hear and find God in silence. And silence is quiet but you can still hear it if that makes sense. And through meditation you also spend time with God, as they say about prayer. That's why I see meditation as prayer. From now on I will call meditation prayer because that's what I believe it to be. I can already tell that it's doing me good so I'm going to do it every day for the foreseeable future. Of course I'll continue to pray as normal or pray for other people when something comes to mind or when I have something to say, but for now I'll stick to meditation. I don't have a goal with meditation but I would love to be in that state 24/7