It has been a decision many months in the making but I just bought myself a TV for the first time since I was a teenager wanting to play video games in my bedroom. Of course I've still watched tv, shows on my laptop, sport on my iPad, YouTube on my phone - and I have even owned a projector and streamed movies on it. I've just not had a black mirror sitting in any room I've lived in, creating an eerie lopsided vortex of energy in the space. Well yesterday I challenged that and went into Curry's and walked out with a 55inch OLED Samsung TV. So why the change of heart? Lately I've been finding myself on some evenings going down youtube binge rabbit holes. Channels like Veritasium, Tom Scott, The Internet Historian, Atrocity Guide (to name a few). The algorithm has gotten so good at feeding me edu-tainment channels that I quite enjoy and makes me feel like I'm learning something too. Now watching these channels in themselves I don't think is bad, and everything in moderation and at the right time. The main thing I noticed though while these are all intellectually stimulating besides the odd funny moments giving me a chuckle I wasn't really FEELING much other then an addictive kind of satisfaction. It's hard in a 10-20minute video to get emotionally invested and frankly youtube mostly isn't about that type of content (though of course there is still good emotive content on there). I know when I am in a bit more of an open/soft space emotionally and I watch a good movie, or get really invested in a set of characters in a tv show it helps me to feel and access my own feelings – wether they're of sympathy or because the moments are relatable to my own life and relationships. Maybe a first world problem but watching shows or movies on my laptop just isn't the same, it's close up, small and it's my work station. On a TV I can unplug for the evening, airplane mode my phone and fully immerse myself in whatever I am choosing to watch (that's the plan at least). Especially with these longer, cold nights it gives me the opportunity to do something that is emotionally stimulating and soulfully productive rather then just doom scrolling.

The next part of Soul Mechanics is up 👀 This is the main video on the topic of Anger that I wanted to create. Please take some time to watch this week 👍🏼 Tim

#Movie – The Work I just rented this and watched the full film. I cried lots. Very moving to see men expressing their pain, anger, fear and care/love. So touching, anyone else watched it yet?

#UNDERSTANDING ANGER Loved the egg analogy at the start. As you've said, it really is a daunting path to get to our true selves. What if we don't like what we find when we finally (try to) get beneath our protective shell? The part on the emotional addictions reminded me of Albert Ellis's Rational emotive behaviour therapy. I suggest reading up on it if interested. According to Ellis, our problems, including anger, result from turning our healthy desires (e.g. success, approval) into demands. We often place demands on ourselves (I must achieve XYZ, or I am a worthless person). But they can also be directed towards others (everyone must treat me how I want them to treat me, or else they should be punished). Or even towards the world (the conditions in which I live must be according to my standards all the time, and if they're not, then this life is not worth living). As you can probably see, that way of thinking can easily lead us to frustration, self-pity, anger, etc. According to this theory, we don't get emotionally disturbed because of the unfortunate events in our life, but because of how we choose to construct our views towards ourselves, people around us, and the world. And we construct them through, for example, the use of certain language expressions, evaluative, sometimes judgmental beliefs, etc. “Anger arises when an addiction was not met” – so true. I'm experiencing much less anger since I've started getting to the root of my addictions. But it is often painful to challenge some of my long-standing beliefs about myself. I've also realized that I resort to sarcasm as a means of indirectly projecting anger. Reducing the frequency of my sarcastic statements made dealing with the true cause of anger much easier. In my opinion, it would be healthier for us if we were to express anger, kindly, towards everyone we cross our path with. Inequality approach to expressing anger has an adaptive function, tough. Not getting beat up or fired sounds like a good idea.

#Processing Anger Demo Kudos to you for putting this out there. Avoidance of emotions and compartmentalization of emotions seems to be very much a source of peoples' general lack well being. In my practice I often emphasize 4 keys to health (sleep, nourishment, emotional regulation , and movement). Emotional regulation being the most humbling of the four to address. I discovered this during a moving meditation variation that encourages the release of anger, grief, fear, hilarity, etc. This reminds me much of that and I have also found it to be very helpful in grounding and releasing me from myself. Thanks again.