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Own worst enemy

After really thinking me and jodi would get back together things have definitely took a downward turn!

Its started by Wednesday night work going mad at me telling me I need to get the job done quicker

They were bang out of order to me I always try my best!

The next day I was at jodis and was supposed to stay there until I left for work I said something which upset her and she told me to leave!

I went but forget my phone and wallet so as I went back in she was walking up the stairs in her underwear

Sorry she said I didnt know you would be coming back in and because I was angry I said its ok you always do it anyway

Meaning the times she has been in the kitchen and told me to advert my eyes!

I have quit porn and webcams so even her saying that has a effect on me so I had do my best to explan this before but as I snapped she said from now on you are here for jack and him only i don't want and relationship with you at all!

I walked out the door phoned in sick for my shift and went on a walk with the intention of ending my life!

She messaged asking if I was safe and when I didn't confirme I was or not she called the police and they was looking for me!

The end result i can't now pick up or take my son to school or even see him for the time being until safe guarding checks have taken place

But I did go to his show at school yesterday of him playing drums

I gave him a cuddle at the end and told him how proud I was and then as I left the school I walked out crying and there was my wife standing right by the door

I didn't make eye contact with her but I see her face drop seeing me so upset

I carried on walking really hopeing she might try to comfort me or send someone else to but I know she did message my sister and best friend to say I was in a bad way!

Just had my 1st bit of food since Wednesday and took a mental health medication for the 1st time ever in my life

Feel so alone and so lost but I have now fully accepted there is no future for me and jodi

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Own worst enemy