Update on the sobriety journey - day 39

After +10 years smoking, sobriety is looking solid. I almost gave up today again seriously after exposing myself socially to my old boss (friendly one). The atmosphere was festive in madrid city and I wanted to join the vibe. I didn't relapse, I repeat it looks solid.

No smoking tobacco and weed at the same time is really hard not because of the cravings but because facing reality is not easy and I'm living the consequences of abusing weed.

Weed abuse made me loss my real personality and friends, so I lost friendly social contact. I lost real connection, I lost 3 jobs. Add to that poor sleep, constant anxiety and the only solution I got are prescribed benzos (that I'm not taking).

Today social exposure can mark a difference:

I REALISED FRIENDLY SOCIAL EXPOSURE IS MY REAL MEDICINE.

Add to that I can work better and longer and workouts feels x3 times better than on weed.

Last but not least, something crazy about getting sober is that positive things happens "magically", that's very strange.

Still a lot of work and time to be where I want to be.

Thanks if you readed till the end.

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Update on the sobriety journey - day 39