Howdy, it's Chris, currently in Coolidge, AZ. It's a privilege to be here with you all...my inner child is finally at peace, feels loved, and had a chance to run amuck and express himself...now, I and i intend to remain aware and conscious in the present moment, to stop slipping back into the old illusions, and to remain in harmony with the true nature of reality...

Infinite gratitude to Aaron- on all levels. Today’s THANKS is for facilitating (another) massive breakthru. The 1st time I did this, I found her- in a tiny glass box. Crated, angry, scared, malnourished (think United States of Tara). I freed her & held the space. Like Vic said, she had animalistic trauma to release (Now, I know that’s what happened during their (Vic & Patti- I pray I’m spelling that right🫶) breath work session. ❤️ I kept doing the meditation. Randomly (Not 21 days in a row- like Aaron suggests & I know works). Turns out, I was the one keeping her in the box. That “story” guilt, shame & remorse. Truth: I was protecting her from getting hurt worse😭. Baby ME got held & Loved- validated. Little ME got the same. Teenage ME was lurking in the shadows. Her voice came thru the sacral chakra & accepting codependent tendencies & reality build on lies created our sexual/relationship past. Work in progress. Leveling up with certainty. Today, ME took us back to a memory I’d already addressed. Ego tried to change it, think of something “new.” Control. ME stood firm. She wanted to be held again. Validated. Reminded. SAFE. A voice. We got it. Control is what changed today. Both my definition & attempts. I let go & I “won.” Love wins… Backstory: My kids dad wouldn’t let me in “our” house, 2 days before Cmas. We became house-less. Jan 22, I invited him to our daughter’s bday dinner (Her request). He came & his behavior had our oldest crying in the bathroom. Few random “I Love You” texts to our oldest. Saw him @ Easter- made her cry again. Silence. Now- symbolic cuz I met him 4th of July weekend & it WAS my fav holiday- 2 of my kids are at his stepsisters house & he’s decided to “bring his new girlfriend over, to meet them,” *not “Cuz I want to see them.” *not cuz “I miss them.” I agreed, but set boundaries. They BLEW thru them. My emotions erupted. I was rolling w the toxic punches externally, but ME threw a vicious tantrum & would not accept “silence.” My body was crouching tiger, my mind a spiraling loop of overthinking. This time, I was watching it more than “being” it. I was ready to address the emotional inflation & lack of conflict resolution- instead of injustice. I changed.

Hello beautiful people✨ I saw a reel recently that said your "muchness" is simply who you are...and obviously I had to stare in wall for a minute after this realisation haha Because how many of us have spent years trying to make ourselves easier to accept? to be ess emotional, intense, less excited, to not be "that" ambitious, to be less “out there", less honest about what we actually want. And at some point I started thinking…wait, according to who? Who decided the correct amount of your energy? of your muchness? Who decided your dreams are too big? Who decided your personality needs to be toned down before you are allowed to be loved, accepted, or taken seriously? I really believe that what people call “too much” is often just your uniqueness before it has been fully accepted by you. And of course, this doesn't mean we stop being respectful or aware of others. But there's a difference between growing as a person and constantly editing yourself so you do not make anyone uncomfortable. Your muchness might be your gift to the right people 🎁 and your sensitivity might be the thing that helps people feel seen🌟 Your intensity might be devotion. Your weird ideas might be the start of something super iconic. Your desire for more might be the exact reason you are here. the people meant for you do not need the smallest version of you. They need the real one. I’m curious, have you ever felt like you were “too much” when maybe you were actually just becoming more yourself? 🤍

Watch the video. Then give yourself a few quiet minutes to reflect on it. Our minds are incredibly creative when it comes to explaining what we feel. But the stories they tell are not always the truth, and they don't always reveal where the real issue lies. Awareness is where everything begins. Always.

Let me tell you a story, a couple of years ago things in my life would go wrong. I would not get the best grades and I would fail at things despite a lot of effort. I thought if things were bad on my external, my results in life, the things that I can't really control, then that means I had to be unhappy. It's like I thought, 'Oh if I have no money then I have to be depressed, and oh, if I don't have X amount of MRR then I'm not worthy of love.' Sadly this is how a lot of conditioning is done. The world will tell you, 'Oh you have to be sad now if you get rejected or you have to be sad because you didn't get that job, whatever.' I just want to say no matter how bad your external gets, there is only one thing you can truly actually control: your mind and how you talk to yourself. If you can control that then you will be good, despite even honestly being homeless, being even hungry for food, things of that nature. If you can control your mind you will stay mentally sane and that's the biggest thing. You will be the version of you who can actually get the thing that you need anyway, whether that be food, water, or whatever. Something more realistic in this case is just making some money or whatever, or just putting in the reps and all that with all these things. Thank you for reading. Hope it was valuable.