Back at it again.
It's becoming extremely apparent that I have to finish working the 12 Steps of NA if I'm going to stay clean, heal my internalized shame, and break out of the tense state that I've been in lately.
I keep avoiding this task. I almost called out of work today so I could focus on that. The consequences would've been minimal, but I didn't want to let down my boss.
And I'm afraid to call my sponsor, because I think I want to find a new sponsor, and I don't want to let him down.
So apparently I have a fear of letting people down! Gotta get over that fear. On the other side of fear lies freedom...