Hi I am in the beginning of my healing journey and just so want this nightmare to be over with I wanna be able to be me again Im sick of being angry all the time towards my family for no reason I want to be back to myself again and I hope this helps me a lot

I delayed responding to some text messages.

I was trying to think of a self-critical thought, and nothing came to mind for today.

This final assignment was difficult. I even skipped a day to contemplate. This is what I’ve learned: 3 Different Things I survived: 1. The fear of expressing to my husband that I no longer wanted to be married and was choosing “myself”. 2. Circular arguments - that used to exhaust and confuse me until I learned what they were. 3. Sharing with my 4 Adult daughters that I decided to separate from my (2nd) husband. 3 Decisions I’ve Made that Worked Out 1. Choosing myself. I am slowly discovering what “Crystal” wants and needs. I do NOT focus on my age or time spent in this marriage. *(62/ 22 yrs). My time began after I made my decision. My life is on reset, by the Grace of God✨and that keeps me from feeling shame and regret. God✨promised me four score and ten (80yrs)….so I am now prayerfully resetting my next 20yrs.!!! That’s that. I said what I said !☺️ 2..Sharing my decision with my daughters. They expressed how happy they were that I was finally choosing myself and told me I do not have to go through this alone. We have had some vulnerable conversations. I realized they are no longer my little girls. They are grown women with thoughts and perspectives of their own. Several have gone to therapy d/t stress of my divorce with their father and have come to understand a lot. I don’t share everything but I share what I am comfortable sharing. It feels good 3.Completing this 5 Day exercise in 6 days. And finally - 3 Qualities I Appreciate About Myself 1. I am resilient. 2. I have kept my faith in God✨despite my roller-coaster 🎢 ride of emotions. 3. I day dream about what my life will be like when I am finally on my OWN. In my home with just me and my dog. Thank you Kassandra this has been very therapeutic for me.

Today I spent the day with my youngest daughter. We had pizza, hoagies, chips and ice cream. We went grocery shopping and watched tv together. I’m staying over and am happy to spend time with her. My husband called while I was with my daughter- and the small I boundary I set was to NOT answer. He knew where I was and there was no reason to call me. He does it all the time. Reaching out to “touch” me and interrupting my time without him. How I felt about my boundary- I felt good that I didn’t answer the phone. I also felt annoyed that he called in the first place. I didn’t let the phone call ruin my time with my daughter and I didn’t let myself be upset for longer than 15 mins. I take good care of him in spite of our current situation and my desire to be separated. I’ve earned my ” uninterrupted” time with my daughter.