Day 5: Rebuilding Self-Trust · Life After Narcissistic Abuse

Crystal Joan Lee

1d (edited) • 🌿 5-Day Challenge

Day 5: Rebuilding Self-Trust

This final assignment was difficult. I even skipped a day to contemplate.

This is what I’ve learned:

3 Different Things I survived:

The fear of expressing to my husband that I no longer wanted to be married and was choosing “myself”.
Circular arguments - that used to exhaust and confuse me until I learned what they were.
Sharing with my 4 Adult daughters that I decided to separate from my (2nd) husband.

3 Decisions I’ve Made that Worked Out

1. Choosing myself. I am slowly discovering what “Crystal” wants and needs. I do NOT focus on my age or time spent in this marriage. *(62/ 22 yrs).

My time began after I made my decision.

My life is on reset, by the Grace of God✨and that keeps me from feeling shame and regret. God✨promised me four score and ten (80yrs)….so I am now prayerfully resetting my next 20yrs.!!!

That’s that. I said what I said !☺️

2..Sharing my decision with my daughters. They expressed how happy they were that I was finally choosing myself and told me I do not have to go through this alone.

We have had some vulnerable

conversations. I realized they are no longer my little girls. They are grown women with thoughts and perspectives of their own. Several have gone to therapy d/t stress of my divorce with their father and have come to understand a lot. I don’t share everything but I share what I am comfortable sharing. It feels good

3.Completing this 5 Day exercise in 6 days.

And finally -

3 Qualities I Appreciate About Myself

I am resilient.
I have kept my faith in God✨despite my roller-coaster 🎢 ride of emotions.
I day dream about what my life will be like when I am finally on my OWN. In my home with just me and my dog.

Thank you Kassandra this has been very therapeutic for me.

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