MY Story · ADHD Focus Founders

MY Story

I’m 31 years old.And this is the honest truth about me — no filters.

Broke.
No car.
No home.
No real friends or network.
No girlfriend.
Never traveled internationally or even properly within India.
Never had a woman who truly loved me.
Fat, ugly (in my own eyes), and bald with some white hair.
Completely undisciplined.
Only 10th pass — failed 12th.
A diploma from a third-rate college.
No degree.
No confidence to speak in English or talk to people.
Get nervous and anxious easily, especially in front of women.
No skills.
No motivation.
Addicted to porn and fapping daily for the last 15 years.
Always lying to my family and friends.
Dependent on my father, who earns only ₹20,000 a month — and I can’t do anything for him.
Lost my golden years doing nothing but scrolling, overthinking, and building fake scenarios in my head.
I compare myself with everyone on social media and feel worse every single day.
I feel like a complete loser.

And you know what hurts the most?When I see others doing the things I wanted to do — it breaks me inside.It feels like something inside me is burning… like I’m being left behind while life moves on.

I’ve tried to change.I really did.But every time I start — I fall back into the same cycle again.Scrolling endlessly.Watching porn.Eating junk.Wasting time.And then hating myself for it.

I don’t even know how to express this pain properly.It’s just… something deep inside that hurts beyond words.

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