Something that keeps me shackled are the thoughts from the past. I mean if I'm sitting idle or driving alone, a surge of anger takes place inside me and I enter this loop of very aggressive and vengeful thinking abouy closed ones that have wronged me or those I feel they still hold power or familial authority over me.
Also there's this feeling of helplessness with certain characters where I feel like they've been given undue authority over me e.g. my father and I know that no matter what that will always be exploited and weaponised against me which keeps my freedom and independence hijacked for life.
Has anyone dealt or recovered from this? This is keeping me handcuffed to the past. How do I break the cycle and reclaim my power as an individual?