Some grief doesn’t begin with language. It begins before a child even understands what was taken from them. A parent dies. A home changes. Safety disappears. Love becomes inconsistent. And because children do not yet have the emotional framework to process something that large, the grief often gets buried instead of expressed. Not gone. Buried. And buried grief has a way of continuing to shape a life long after the original loss. It can show up in relationships. In anxiety. In hyper-independence. In abandonment fears. In perfectionism. In the inability to rest. In always waiting for the other shoe to drop. In feeling different from everyone else without fully knowing why. Many people spend decades believing something is wrong with them, when in reality, part of them adapted to pain far too early. The truth is, grief experienced in childhood doesn’t stay frozen in childhood. It grows alongside the person carrying it. And most people were never taught how to recognize that. That’s why I’m honored to be joined by Hope Edelman for a free live conversation:The Grief That Shapes Everything. Together, we’ll explore what early loss really does to the nervous system, identity, relationships, and the way people move through the world long after the funeral ends. If this speaks to something inside you, I hope you’ll join us. Wednesday, June 3 10 AM PT / 1 PM ET Free. A replay will be sent to everyone who registers. Register here:Save My Spot – It’s Free Warmly,Toni P.S. There are only a few grants remaining for the Grief Educator Certification program. Right now, those grants reduce the tuition to just $51 — a 97% reduction from the full $2700 program. If you’ve ever felt called to help others navigate grief, loss, trauma, or life after devastation, this may be your moment. The world does not need more people repeating scripts around grief.It needs people who can sit inside the reality of loss with compassion, intelligence, and humanity.

Hi everyone, after today’s session with Toni and listening to her speak about healing with trauma. I kept thinking about a book I was recommended to read to understand more on trauma. I am sharing the picture in case anyone is interested. I hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful Saturday.

And yes. That is me teaching my dance class :)

Moving on into year #2. I don’t know what I expected at this point. Was I expecting things to be better? Not hurt as much? Maybe I thought it’d be just flat feeling like how it was when he was at work and my days just went on. Maybe I thought that once I crossed the threshold into “year number two without you ,” there was gonna be some major balloon drop and confetti Stream shooting everywhere like yay I made it! But there’s nothing. Everything still sucks. I’m taking care of our 28 year-old profoundly autistic son who exhibits self injurious behavior daily. He hit himself in the face so much the last few days that he has a blackeye and part of his nose is now swelling. I had surgery last weekend on my foot after sustaining a dog bite, I broke up my dogs who were fighting. I can’t get the state to help with emergency respite. I’m in the same circle of hell that I was in 6 months ago. I am so pissed at his dad for leaving me with all of this to handle . My other two sons do help, but they are burnt out . It is 24/7 care for brother, something they didn’t sign up for and they are also on the spectrum themselves. And then there’s a part of me that envious that my husband doesn’t have to deal with any of this anymore. So I’m laying in my bed today feeling like shit, foot hurting trying to rest a little bit and I just wanna curl up and disappear. Sorry, this probably makes zero sense. Just venting