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Dealing with grief of my father is so hard. How does anyone move on with their life and enjoy life? It will be 6yrs in July and over the past 2yrs I have started grieving him and it’s hard.
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That timeline makes so much sense… even if it feels confusing. A lot of people don’t actually start grieving right away. In the beginning, your system is in survival mode—handling logistics, shock, staying functional. Then years later, when life gets a little quieter or safer, the grief finally has space to come up. That doesn’t mean you’re behind. It means your mind and body are finally ready to feel what they couldn’t before. Six years doesn’t measure the depth of love. It just measures time. And the question you’re really asking—“How does anyone move on and enjoy life?”—is the one almost everyone sits with at some point. Here’s the truth most people won’t say clearly: You don’t move on from your father. You move forward with him in a different way. Right now, it sounds like you’re in the part of grief where the reality of the loss is landing deeper. That can feel heavier than the early days because it’s no longer shock—it’s awareness. And awareness hurts. But enjoyment of life doesn’t come from “getting over it.” It comes from slowly allowing two things to exist at the same time: - Missing him - Still living your life At first, those two things feel like they cancel each other out. Like if you laugh, you’re leaving him behind… or if you feel joy, it somehow means he matters less. That’s not how it works. The people we love don’t get honored by us shrinking our lives. They stay connected to us through how we live, not how we hold ourselves back. So instead of asking: “How do I move on?” Try shifting it to: “What would it look like to carry him with me as I keep living?” That might look like: - Talking to him in your head when things happen - Noticing moments you wish you could share with him - Letting yourself feel the grief when it comes without judging the timing - And also letting yourself have small moments of enjoyment without shutting them down You don’t have to jump to “loving life again.” That’s too big of a leap. Start with:
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@Heather Senter thank you. That means a lot
martial issues due to loss of brother
hello, thank you to those have provided support with kind words. It has been only 31 days since the tragic, devastating loss of my brother. Has anyone seemed to have discord or increase in arguments with their spouse? And, if so, how do you manage? Any suggestions or input is greatly appreciated. 😊
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Hey… I’m really sorry you’re in this. 31 days is so fresh. There’s still a lot of shock in the system whether it looks like it or not. I haven’t personally experienced that dynamic in my own relationship, but I’ve walked a lot of people through this exact thing after a loss like yours—and what you’re describing comes up all the time. Grief doesn’t just hit you. It hits the relationship. Two people can love each other deeply and still start clashing more because you’re not grieving the same way, at the same pace, or even in the same language. One person might want to talk about it constantly.The other might shut down or try to “stay strong.”One might be more emotional.The other more practical. And without even realizing it, it can start to feel like:“Why aren’t you showing up the way I need?”“Why are you acting like this?”“Why don’t you get it?” But underneath that… it’s usually just pain with nowhere to go. What I’ve seen help my clients: First—name what’s actually happening.Not “we’re fighting more,” but “we’re both hurting and it’s leaking out sideways.” Second—stop trying to grieve the same way. You don’t have to match each other to be connected. You just have to respect that it’s going to look different. Third—create small moments where you’re on the same team again.That can be as simple as:“Hey, I know we’ve been off. I don’t want to fight you. I’m just having a hard time.” It sounds basic, but that one sentence has shifted a lot of relationships back into connection. And lastly—give both of you more grace than you think you should. You're both operating with a nervous system that’s overwhelmed right now. Patience is going to be thinner. Reactions will be quicker. This doesn’t mean something is wrong with your relationship, it means something devastating happened, and it’s moving through both of you.
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@Heather Senter thank you. I’m glad it helped in any way
Ashes
We have set a date to spread Kim’s ashes, April 18th. It seems really soon (3 months), but Kim’s parents are not in good shape (they are elderly and both have cancer). She wanted her ashes spread at her parent’s property where she grew up. We will have to take side-by-side 4x4s to get to the spot. Her mom has been a little upset about the plan. She says she doesn’t want Kim “down there” by the creek. So I got her a small hand carved wooden urn. It won’t hold much, but it is more to comfort her than anything. I also got one for me. The organ transplant company gave us some small vials with Kim’s EKG in it. So I am putting a small amount in those for our daughter, grandkids and her sister. I asked if they wanted a small urn and they said no. Our grandson, 8, wants to help spread the ashes. I don’t think our granddaughter, 4, will but we will ask her that day. I also got myself a necklace that I can put a micro amount in. The point of this long thread is that it feels final. I talk to her all the time. I don’t want to lose that.
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I’m really glad you told me all of this, because this is the part people don’t say out loud. Nothing about April 18th is going to take her away from you. Spreading her ashes isn’t where your relationship ends. It’s just one moment where your body is forced to acknowledge something your heart is still learning how to live with. You’re not “losing” her because you choose a place by a creek or a date on a calendar. You talk to her because she’s still part of your life. That doesn’t stop after that day. If anything, it usually gets clearer. Less about the physical and more about the connection that didn’t go anywhere. And everything you’re doing here… it’s love in motion. You’re thinking about her parents and their pain.You’re making space for your kids and grandkids to connect in their own way.You’re even carrying her with you in a necklace. That’s not final. That’s integration. Her mom being upset makes sense too. A creek can feel like “too far,” like she’s being placed somewhere instead of kept close. And you found a way to meet her there without taking away what Kim wanted. That’s a hard line to walk, and you’re doing it with a lot of care. About your grandson wanting to help—let him. Kids don’t carry the same fear around death. He’ll approach it with love, not finality. Your granddaughter will follow her own rhythm, and that’s okay too. The real thing underneath all of this is what you said at the end: “I don’t want to lose that.” You won’t. But it may change shape. You might find that after that day, the conversations feel quieter at first… and then deeper. Less like reaching for her, more like knowing she’s there. Keep talking to her. Out loud. In your head. In the car. Wherever it happens. That connection isn’t tied to ashes, a place, or a date. It’s tied to love. And that didn’t get buried, scattered, or put in a vial.
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@Eva Hardesty I’m glad it helped in any way
HEY HEY- ONLY 3 SPOTS LEFT!
Master Grief’s First Annual Grief Retreat WE ARE GETTING EXCITED!!! This summer, I’m hosting an intimate MasterGrief retreat in Fairfield for those who are ready to move beyond surviving loss and begin rebuilding their life with meaning. This is not a typical workshop. It’s a high-touch, immersive grief experience designed to give you the space, structure, and guidance most people never receive. What makes this retreat different is the proximity. We are not meeting in a conference room and going our separate ways at the end of the day. We are living this experience together. We’ll be sharing a home, meals, conversations, quiet moments, and real life in between the work. You’ll have direct access to me—not just during sessions, but throughout the entire experience. The conversations don’t end when the workshop does… they continue over coffee in the morning, while cooking together, on walks, and in those in-between moments where real healing happens. August 7–9 (Arrive August 6, retreat begins the morning of the 7th) This experience will include: • Comfortable lodging (private or shared rooms) • All meals and beverages throughout the weekend • Cooking together as a form of grounding and connection • Guided breathwork sessions to help release what the body is holding • Guided grief workshops with me • Small group coaching sessions • Group integration and reflection circles • Nature walks and quiet reflection time • Structured journaling exercises • Evening conversations and deep processing sessions • Practical tools for rebuilding life after loss To preserve the intimacy and depth of this work, the retreat is limited to just 12 participants. Investment: Shared Room: $2,700 Private Room: $3,900 VIP Intensive: $4,500 The VIP experience includes: • A private 90-minute one-on-one session with me during the retreat • Private dinner with me and the coaching team on August 6 • A signed copy of In the Trenches: A Coach’s Walk Through Grief • Two private follow-up Zoom sessions after the retreat
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@Kayden Marra you’ll be missed for sure!!!!
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