Hi, 20 years ago I lost my mam and due to recent passings its brought my mams passing to the forefront. At the sametime I'm grieving who I once was, as I'm leaving work on ill health retirement due to medical grounds. I feel that I've lost my role as a parent, no longer needed as a work colleague and as I'm housebound at present the lost of friendships, and grieving who I am as well as many bereavements.