I loved the idea of being in a community that strives for reflection, growth, and returning to inner strength. This alone motivates me to learn more and more English vocabulary here and to share my thoughts with the wonderful people who are here (bad thoughts or good thoughts it doesn't matter it's all good 😊)... Thank you @I Am Rey 💙🙉 Thank you all💙💙💙🙉

I made a decision yesterday to go 90 days without any YouTube, TV or social media like IG or Facebook. I have been in recovery from addiction for a bit over a year now and I see my “condition” manifesting in other areas. Earlier in my recovery I knew that stepping away from tv, porn and other things was important for me to heal and have space to lend my energy to stillness, self care and receiving wisdom. I was abstinent from these things for many months until I got a bit comfy. Much too comfy… and I, like with many things, hyper focused, obsessed and couldn’t stop even when I wanted to. This is a problem I have that I find when I really like something I don’t want to stop and even when it becomes painful, too much or harmful, I just want to stay and keep indulging. Sooo… what I’m trying to say is that I have choosing as of yesterday to go 90 days abstaining from these things. I will be able to see myself wanting them and experience the pause and action elsewhere. I am seeing where so much of my energy and focus was going… where now I can either do yoga, meditation, go to a recovery meeting or come on here and watch the coursework we have on here. I can also do self care, call friends and go be in nature. It’s like the very things I was isolating from, became an option when I not longer have the option to use the tv and all that. So for me, this process isn’t so comfortable always. It is peaceful at times but also, I go to food and then perhaps sex etc. however, without that intense barrier with the tv and things, I can now focus on the other areas I may be abusing as well - food, obsession with cleanliness to the point of panic - sex. Things along those lines. I just wanted to share how healing and freeing it feels for me to let go of that which I am holding onto so tight, it’s not just one perspective I am gaining but many!