hi guys, ive recently got diagnosed with adult adhd (well it was very prominent in my life, but the anxiety got so intense i just needed an answer at this point). and im currently in a healthcare degree which requires me to practice on my clients and giving them therapy. But recently one of my first encounters on an external placement lowkey got me so overwhelmed, i felt like my body was shutting down, i wanted to cry and i was just shaking. I got overwhelmed with how my senior handled the patients, and I got just extremely afraid. It's to the point where my suicidal thoughts have started to surface and just going on with my daily life is getting harder (i.e. bathing and such). any tips on how to regulate yourself when you are feeling emotions this intense? i'm off my medication because the side effects are just too much for me to bare

Hey, I just wanted to ask—am I the only one who feels this way or can someone relate? And if you have any tips, please spill! So, journaling has always been a struggle for me. There are a couple of reasons: First, writing about what I went through earlier in the day often feels like reliving the same emotions all over again. For example, if I was scolded or insulted by someone in the morning and felt terrible about it, sitting down later to journal about it just brings back the pain and makes me cry again. It doesn’t feel productive—like why would I put myself through it again? Second, my thoughts move so fast in my head that trying to write them down feels like multitasking at high speed. Before I can finish writing one thought, 10 others pop up, and it gets really frustrating. I know journaling doesn’t have to make perfect sense and it’s okay to just brain dump, but even then, I find myself getting overwhelmed. That said, I do write my feelings down when I need to communicate something important—like if I’m having issues with a friend, I’ll write it all out to help organize my thoughts before talking to them. So it’s not like I hate writing entirely, just the kind that feels emotionally heavy or hard to keep up with.

How do you guys pay attention to lectures? Usually, whenever I pay attention I can only recall the second and the last thing my prof said but never the first. And I tend to forget stuffs when I was just literally listening to my prof throughout the whole discussion….or maybe not? I probably just ended up looking at the random stain on the prof’s shirt. I did try note taking but I was like “what did he say again?”. Also I’m bad at understanding instructions especially when they don’t write it on the board, it makes me feel so slow 😭🤚🏻