Hi everyone, this is Marjan. I wanted to share something personal, in case some of you have experienced something similar or have insights to offer. I immigrated to Austria about ten years ago, and back then, anxiety wasn’t really part of my life. My biggest dream was simple: to start a family and earn a PhD. That was it. I’ve always felt a deep connection to nature and could sense God's presence in every little creature and phenomenon. Now I live in Finland, and to be honest, I feel more at home here than I ever did in my home country or Austria. But here's where things get complicated. Over the years, life brought a lot of unexpected turns and challenges, and somewhere along the way, I developed intense, chronic anxiety that I’m still struggling with. Even though I’m passionate about my work and the things I care about, I’ve never truly felt successful in loving myself or anything else. My prayers to build a family have remained unanswered, and that hurts deeply, especially since, in my mind, I never imagined a life lived alone. I try to cope, but it often feels like the harder I try, the more I fail. And letting go of that dream feels like letting go of a part of myself. I know healing starts from within, but I’m just so tired, physically, mentally, emotionally. I can’t keep up with journaling or stay active like I used to. Everything feels heavier lately. I often feel invisible, even though I remind myself that God is always present and that the world unfolds according to His good purpose. I try to trust the timing, hold onto faith, and keep moving forward… but it’s hard not to feel like I’m losing time, just as I did in my 20s. I stayed being thankful and positive, but deep inside, I am not healed , and its the biggest failure for me having all of these information about self-love etc. :(

Family.. First and foremost, HAPPY MONDAY! I want to share a few books that have deeply transformed me on my healing journey. (check out the PDF attached below) These are books that met me in the mess. Books that cracked me open… reminded me who I really am…And helped me let go of who I never was. I believe books find us exactly where we are...not just as information, but as sacred mirrors…guides that reveal what our soul is ready to see. So here’s my invitation: Let’s create a collective well of wisdom. A thread of the books that touched you the deepest, healed you in the most beautiful ways ,and helped you transform into the man or woman you were always in the process of becoming. What book(s) changed your life..and how? Drop the title. Drop a quote. Drop the story behind it. Let’s build a living library that can serve us all. Because sometimes, the right book in the right hands…can change a life forever. “Books are a uniquely portable magic.” – Stephen King“ One book. One moment. One sentence… that’s all it takes to shift everything.” Let’s hear yours below ⬇️ With love, Justin