I struggle with social media and currently I am on a break. However, I’m in love with writing/art. I hope to eventually write a book or compile my essays/poetry into some type of journal. This piece is especially meaningful and liberating to me. I am leaving behind my old life. If you take the time to read this, Thank you❤️ https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tnETIlXgKD_04R3kTQVcGDVbUlS1DSM0/edit?usp=drivesdk&ouid=106844300960790365541&rtpof=true&sd=true

The first annual Sacred Circus tent revival! THIS is what happens when you live and feel in the end! May 2, 2026 - 12 hours of Profound Play you choose your own path to receive: easy, adventurous, or lone wolf. AND you get an outfit, a play sword, and receive lessons and an opportunity to slay Dragons. Whhhhhhaaaaa???!!!! Welcome to the Sacred Circus - I am your ringleader and you can follow me like ducks where I go or follow where I point or follow the field guide and go lone wolf style. I’m not crying - you’re crying! https://thesacredcircus.com/ thank you @Nihal Shrimal - I added in a Queen Retreat! https://www.angelashelton.com/pages/sacred-circus The synchronicity is just so magnificent. May 2 is the 25th anniversary of me making my documentary searching for angela Shelton and the sacred circus is a combination of all of the healing techniques, I’ve learned over the decades to catapult people out of trauma loops and into transformation! And now I have an oil that lives chronic pain so we will have a holy hot mama apothecary tent, where you can put the oil on for free and dance around pain-free! I became a trauma informed, trauma trained trauma and recovery, blah blah, blah expert certified, and certificates and saw that the healing movement can also be such a trap and the parasitic Fuckery is very much in the “healing” sector to get people and keep them trapped in new loops. Sooooo we are going to totally fuck with those motherfuckers and completely blocked them out and play play play and you slay them in your body, mind, and aura with the most fun activities and it’s a total trick you have no idea that you’ll never have another panic attack when you come to the circus. The whole entire area will be surrounded by high frequency in a multitude of ways that when you enter, you are entering the challenge for a complete catharsis! WHAAAA!!!

This game of influence is a game of energy, capacity and nervous system regulation. My meditation teacher once told me that "Thor, I believe the game of life is all about increasing your capacity to hold energy". He would go on to explain that the more energy and consciousness you can hold, the more of the higher realms are you able to bring into this lower, denser 3D matrix. And in doing so, you are improving this 3D reality for everyone. The more higher consciousness we can bring into this realm, the better reality becomes. The more we move towards a New Earth. This game of influence is the same. We are training our system to hold more tension, more energy, and in the increasing of this capacity, can we be more expressed. We can channel more clearly, and speak more precisely. We become higher better versions of ourselves, and this again, makes reality better for everyone. The trick here is to understand that TENSION is the name of the game. Pushing yourself outside your comfort zone. Welcoming the tension when it arrives, and consciously telling yourself that "yes, this is it. I'm playing the game". And as you alchemize the tension of public self expression, you come more online, and the views come pouring in. That's why this game is equally as much energy as it is strategy. And many of you have already had profound transformations with this already. The more tension you can hold, the more attention you receive. Attention. Tension. At Tension. When you're AT the point of TENSION. You're walking the bridge towards attention. So keep walking. Hope you're having a lovely friday!

I’m going through a deep process right now with my relationship to humility, and this comes with some fear of judgment sharing obviously.. BUT our top value in this community is honesty and truth, and I’m willing to kill any identity in your eyes of me being a certain way so that I can actually actualize my potential. Those of you who have been with me over the last year I’m very curious on how you would define humility and what humility looks like for you in your life. As well as if you have any reflections for me, feel free to share them in private. I’ve realize recently that I’ve never had a real grounded definition or understanding of what humility is. It’s always had a very skewed definition in my mind, even though it’s been a virtue I’ve seen it as lowering yourself below someone almost like apathy and lack of belief or confidence in itself, but I’m realizing that that is not the case. But really developing a healthy relationship with this virtue has become my number one priority so your perspective would be deeply appreciated. Below is some very interesting insights that I’ve come across so far about humility. From a little digging this really landed ( from our friend GPT) 1. What humility really is (and what it is not) Humility is not thinking less of yourself. Humility is thinking of yourself accurately. Real humility is: Seeing your gifts without inflation Seeing your flaws without self-hatred Knowing you are formed by forces you did not author Acting from truth without needing it to be witnessed or validated At its core, humility is right-sized selfhood. Entitlement says: “My presence alone should earn trust, goodwill, forgiveness, or loyalty.” Humility says: “Trust is built. Gratitude is shown over time. Integrity is demonstrated, not declared.” Here’s the hard line most people miss, Humility is behavioral before it is emotional. But humility has two halves: Internal humility - Gratitude - Remembrance - Awareness of dependence - Reverence for life, death, lineage, grace

This human experience is so silly. I understand now what J Cole meant when he said “Beauty in the struggle, ugliness in the success.” I’m leaving behind my struggle era—-stepping out of the darkness & I feel like a mess. Success is so odd after years of fighting to do your best. I had my first art show about a month ago——nothing too serious, but it meant a lot to me. Art and nature have been my main outlets in life. Over the last few years, it’s all I really have focused on😆 Mother Nature holds and grounds me, while art provided me an outlet for my pain. I don’t really know how to talk about myself or my life, but I can say that I really wasn’t okay for awhile. The combination of rejection from my Mom & years of an emotionally abusive relationship——left me pretty beat. I felt tired of life when I was only a child. But I never gave up on myself. The thought that one day I could be in a position to help others move through their dark nights of the soul is what motivated me to keep creating. And now that my art is starting to get attention, it feels so weird. Like my art is a compilation of endless nights of crying myself to sleep or not being able to sleep at all. And it’s so silly because my art is so bright & so am I. I feel misunderstood in the sense that I feel that people don’t realize I’m actually an extremely dark person. Or at least, I’ve faced extreme darkness—-something I don’t really care to speak on because I just want to spread my light. You can only shine as bright as the depths of the darkness you’ve faced. That sums up me hehe. So here I am, feeling for the girl who wasn’t seen when she most needed to be. It feels surreal to have all these opportunities opening for me. After my first art show, which was soooo magical (I united opposing family members and it was so full of love)… I got a bit overwhelmed because I know it’s only up from here. A part of me was like noooo I just want to keep being invisible. Like it’s so silly and paradoxical. All in all, I feel so loved and I’m getting used to the light❤️ I am working on opening up to the world because I’ve realized that I am an important person (we all are). & it looks like I’ll be hosting creativity calls, hell yeah!