I’ve felt a strong freeze urge but instead I’ve been choosing to be courageous, experiment with some of the tools and just show up. It’s weird, last week I told my accountability partners I had an inspiration to start a new page and then every post after that statement has tanked on views, like plummeted so much it almost comical. So I’m taking that as a sign from God to follow my damn inspirations. My commitment is to start the new page by Sunday. And to record my series and post daily. Any feedback on today’s post would be appreciated. I tried the moving my microphone (obsidian butt plug) into the frame as I started talking from the action hooks we talked about in class today. https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUHGTNDjvP3/?igsh=MnRwNTZ0aWxpazJw

I struggle with social media and currently I am on a break. However, I’m in love with writing/art. I hope to eventually write a book or compile my essays/poetry into some type of journal. This piece is especially meaningful and liberating to me. I am leaving behind my old life. If you take the time to read this, Thank you❤️ https://docs.google.com/document/d/1tnETIlXgKD_04R3kTQVcGDVbUlS1DSM0/edit?usp=drivesdk&ouid=106844300960790365541&rtpof=true&sd=true

Hey ya'll I finally finished my Holiday Series! Some reflections & an invitation... even tho it's passed the corporate holiday time, it still felt relevant with the real new year still on the horizon... normally I would feel a lot of shame about "being late" but I didn't fall into that trap this time & I just honored my own rythm & time with this. which felt healing and good overall! In reflection, I won't make another series in the way I made this one. I did film all the beginning at the same time, but having a gap of actually finishing the videos had me falling out enjoyment with it & I had to keep readjusting my energy to finish the series feeling good but ultimately it didn't feel great. So going forward, I'll do it differently, maybe a series without pressure to end, or film and complete it all within a few days type of thing... Ironically I had just one brief clip of me and my mom, the rest was random b-roll, so in terms of the theme it didn't exactly align. I realized I don't actually want to post videos of my family directly like that, I like to maintain as much privacy as I can. I also think I could have done a better job highlighting the points or transformation somehow, there is something there I don't know what exactly, but every video I posted feeling unsure if it was really nailing something and it didn't exactly feel like it was... so reflecting there more too. Curious if you have any insights that arise? I think I have a fear the entire series was just boring lmaoo but ultimately I feel super proud I finished and learned a lot! Here's the final one: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUHEXNBD223/?igsh=MXVyN3VoMzJsdHFjbg==

Ohmyfkn,..... beepdefknbeep. I gave up on this so many times over the past week and a half, mainly due to technology but also many shadows I had to play with, but mostly technology. The sound is shit coz I couldn't get the wind off without it messing with voice so it is what it is, and I've just posted. So, I would love some feedback on this please.. I feel like I'm going backwards .. or 2 steps forward, a week of playing catchup then 3 steps back anytime I try to implement something or post.. I need a drink 😅😭🤣 but hugging a tree will have to do 🙏 TIA https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUFcR7GDIqt/?igsh=MTFodWEyeWdhZnE5dw==

After the call today I took action on one of my ideas I’ve been avoiding. I have been letting imperfect health, a fear of tech, and a fear of embarrassment hold me back. But today I decided no more. So, here I am being seen and I’d be thrilled for any feedback on how I can improve. I chose the Cardi B mix because it fits with my message, but also I am offering a ‘Luxury Love Weekend” immersive healing experience that includes a stretch limo to dance our butts off at Cardi B’s concert after we do deep healing work in a luxury suite. Here’s the link to my IG post: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DT1CmWojvQ4/?igsh=aWU1OTJyNGNiYzht