Biggest insight: how isolated I’ve made myself My open loop is: not taking my vitamins One word for how I feel right now: curious

Sorry if I am being irritating. I have left it until the last minute and really want to go through the process. I won’t be able to join the new cohort as my other half has been made redundant so I want to power through this so that I can get some help and hopefully join a future cohort. So sorry if it seems like I’m spamming xx Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and realized something I've been missing for years: my "productivity problem" isn't actually about productivity. It's a self-abandonment pattern I built as a kid walking the playground alone. Every system failed because none of them were solving the real thing.

Just finished all 3 sections of my ADHD Snapshot and realised something I've been hiding from myself: it's not that I put everyone else first, it's that my needs don't even make it onto the list. The shower story I shared made it impossible to keep pretending otherwise.

Section 2 of my Snapshot just hit different. I realised the reason I couldn't ask my partner for a cup of tea yesterday is the exact same reason I can't start the meal plan I made on Sunday. It's all one wiring. And the "ugh" I get before starting things isn't laziness, it's my own nervous system trying to protect me. Mind blown.

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realised something I'd never put together before: the strategies I used to "function" didn't survive Covid and perimenopause because they were never really functioning, they were masking. And the way I cut friends off when I hit burnout? That's not coldness. That's not having a volume control between people-pleasing and disappearing.