its really hard to fight the urge when it has been consistent for a long period of time, even though im tempted i dont feel the same urge or any sense of good or accomplishment at all after going through the task, really lost here can someone help me out...

"I know I should be studying cuz my exams are 2 months far. I know if I studied just 3-4 hours a day I can get very good grades, but I don't study. For the last 3 days, I've been obsessed with chess. In 3 days I have played like 6-7 hours of chess each day, and when I lose, I try to learn openings and to do chess puzzles. I think it's a good thing instead of scrolling reels, but I'm still not studying no matter what I do even If I watch anime or play chess or just procrastinate, it's no progress towards my goal. In the last ten days, I only studied like 5 hours ig, which is 0.5 hours each. This is messed up. I know the consequences and I'm aware of myself not doing anything. People say blame yourself to grow; I do, but nth changed. They say accept who you are, I accept I'm lazy so how do I fix this? Just wondering if some philosophers thought abt this shit and gave solutions."

I feel we are just sadistic,the classical monkey pulling others down