I am able to verbally express my ideas and points well but I can’t write an academic essay very well. I have no plans of going into a job where I need to be able to write academically. Is this an issue I should fix or just continue to use Ai as a handy cap? Is the introduction of AI equal to when people said that books (the ability to write things down) will ruin people’s memory and make them dumb?

I am gonna be completely honest i am not really "knowledgeable" in this subject but i tried to search about it online, online it read that philosophy is a "systematic study of general and fundamental questions concerning topics like existence, knowledge, mind, reason, language, and value." At least that is what wikipedia said. So that means that if someone questions knowledge ,mind ,reason ,language or value is a philosopher? I am kind of lost here. it just feels like "Philosopher" is a big title and giving this title to someone just because he asked "what is the reason of life?" seems a bit ridiculous to me, and i am not saying it out of ignorance or just trying to hate. I am genuinely trying to learn and kind of understand this subject. I learned from the introduction video that a philosopher isn't someone that just doesn't do anything all day and "thinks", so i feel like i am missing something, even now when checking online the meaning of a philosopher it gives that a "philosopher is a thinker who systematically studies profound questions regarding existence, knowledge, ethics, reason, and mind". but what exact studies can you do on questions that don't even have an exact answer to them? It sounds goofy because that is kind of how math and physics work if i am not wrong. But how more can you expand about questions like "Do we have free will?" or "is there a universal basis for morality?" because those questions are kind of opinion based at least in my personal opinion. (Just saying i took those questions from google and didn't think of em). I feel like the title philosopher gets thrown around too freely to be honest. So i am just trying to understand what is the difference between someone like Socrates and the average joe when they think about the exact same question? I guess that Socrates will probably have more "profound" or "better" answers, but why that makes Socrates a philosopher but that random dude not? or am i just missing something?

A long time ago a was muslim too but after a while i came into a conclusion that this religion is no where near the truth, so became an atheist, i wanted to tell my muslim gf that iam an atheist and she gotta accept me as iam but iam afraid that she'll leave me and honestly, she treat me right and iam afraid that I'll never be able to experience that again, its heavy to hide this side of me but its even heavier thinking that she will leave me whenever i tell her that, i know its the right thing to tell her but i just can't, i don't know why Its just a cycle of endless pain