𝟮𝟯 𝟵 𝟮𝟲 Today is 𝗘𝗤𝗨𝗜𝗡𝗢𝗫 here in Bali, or is that in other places hmmm, really must brush up on this kinda stuff, day and night are equal-ish 12-12, it sorta always around that mark, give or take 40 mins at a rough guess. I have a feeling the rains are coming and wonder if this shift has a part to play in that…(thoughts?) Last night Ekka and I had a drive around Ubud centre on the Scoopy, just 2 get out and about for a bit, stopped for one beer at a Madura mart (street shop) (currently distracted as Miss Fluff has come for cuddle, WOW she is damn cute) 🐾 …anyways yes back to the drive, riding around the streets with bustling holiday makers, some out at fancy restaurants, some buying little Bali souvenirs from the market sellers. PENIS KEYRINGS and bottle openers are quite the rave here, I remember back in 2017 when I first came to Bali, I was engrossed in the culture, the magic of the place, I was staying at a cute homestay down one of the small street just of the main one (must try find my blog out about it the day I arrived in Bali…all on my Tod, with the full moon…blown away oooffff…the memories) Anyways one day a friend (now I call a friendshit, but thats a story for another day…lets just say HUGE EGO) and I decided to buy one beer, take it back, drink on the balcony watching the moon or doing something woo, back in the days I was very woo, not so much any more… Anyways point being, when I asked if they have a bottle opener, the lovely lady at the homestay said on the fridge, I turned into a silly chuckly 11 year old girl when I saw it was 𝗪𝗜𝗟𝗟𝗬 𝗦𝗛𝗔𝗣𝗘𝗗 (medium sized lol, not that thats relevant teehee). I heard that they do sell a lot of willies because of the joke factor, and also they have cultural roots, not the keyring or bottle opener duh, the willy, aka Lingga, a Hindu symbol of Lord Shiva, COSMIC ENERGY, creation, masculine etc, and something to do with warding of evil spirits and fertility… 𝗪𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗯𝗲𝗮𝘂𝘁𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘄𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗷𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗮𝗹, 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝘂𝘁𝗲 𝗜 𝗮𝗺 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘂𝗻 (𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗻𝗼𝘅), 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗼𝗱𝗲𝗻 𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘀.

But thats not me... Gulp…I’m gonna say the thing so many people never dare say, cos they'd rather hide behind the version of reality that looks better on a feed… 𝗠𝘆 𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻 𝗳𝘂𝗰𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄. There. Said it. Gulp. No dressing it up, no "pivoting" language, no "seasons of business" softness round it. F-u-c-k-e-d… I'm on the verge of quitting. And I hate typing that sentence, cos I've put years upon years into this. I believed in people. I believed in our gifts, mine and my clients', properly believed it, not in a fake ass cringe caption kinda way. right now, from what I'm actually experiencing, people crave real, human, in-person stuff, and that's summat I literally cannot offer, cos I live here in Indonesia and it's against the law for me to work in-person here… Things have changed. A hella lot. And it's just me Mimi. I don't have a side hustle propping this up. I don't have someone else's income covering the gap if this month's quiet. It's me. Mimi. That's the whole damn safety net… I don't know what the fuck to do. 𝗠𝘆 𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗔𝗙, 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀, my clients were doing amazing, epic af results, the whole thing was working. And this year's just hit different. And I know I'm not the only one feeling it either… So what do I do now. Give up? I've got zero answers on that one. My mind is in some kinda blank state…I do not know what else to try…n I don't wanna try (i am tired)… so I am at some huge wall…and its sucks And I hate what it's turned me into a bit, if I'm honest which duh obvs I am. Or maybe I'm not turned into anything, maybe I'm just totes sad and it's coming out looking like bitterness... People being randomly inconsistent for months, then suddenly posting "sold out," and there's a bit of me that just... doesn't believe it anymore. And I hate that that's where my brain goes now. I hate that I've become the person who reads other people's wins with one eyebrow raised instead of just being happy for them. That's not who I wanna be. But right now, knackered and scared about my own future where the ef the money is gonna come from, it's where I'm at

Right, so here's what's happening. I'm kinda digging something out the archives and just... giving it away. FREE. In here. WTF... Could be hooks, templates, trainings, mindset stuff, copy breakdowns, random workbooks I made three years ago and forgot existed until I was having a clear out last week and went "oh shit the bed, this is actually decent, why is this just sat on a hard drive doing NAFF ALL." Some of it used to be paid. Some of it was buried behind old offers that don't even exist anymore. Doesn't matter, it's coming OUT, it's YOURS... Why am I doing this? well, no big clever strategy behind it, I just got sick of stuff I'd actually put proper time and thought into sitting there unused while I moved onto the next thing, So this is me looking back. And handing it over. 𝗔 𝗳𝗲𝘄 𝗵𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗯𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁: Some of the links or bits inside these might be a bit outdated, cos they were written for offers or pages that don't exist anymore, IF SOMETHING LOOKS OFF OR DOESN'T WORK, just message me or best to commnet below this thread, and ask no biggy Every new drop goes in the COMMENTS below, day by day, so this thread's basically the home of it all, just keep scrolling down as we go... If you want more than just the free stuff, THE BACKROOMS still there, it's a low-cost membership where you get proper support, feedback, community, the works, NOT required at all to make use of any of this, just mentioning it exists if you want to go deeper...its 1$ thats all to keep scammy scum out And if any of what I drop actually helps you, and you fancy showing a bit of love back, coffee's always welcome, NEVER expected: buymeacoffee.com/justmimi Right. Let's get into it. 𝗙𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘆 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝗽 👇

the left page of a notebook gives me the eebie jeebies to write on. Bobblier than the right. Tried it once or twice, but nah - sticking to the right. Common thing, or am I simply wierd af again... Just inking out loud, Mimi x ✍️

Found this in a journal from 2021 📖 "I always have this need to be liked. To be wanted. To be loved." Wot I'd tell her now: that need never leaves, You just stop letting it drive.... Just inking out loud, Mimi x ✍️