not going to the gym, not as motivated at work. these are sign that there's an inner conflict inside you. did something happened personally that triggered you to lose yourself? like any relationship issues, loss of someone you care about, burnout or maybe boredom with your current work? that can give us hint as to why you can't push yourself and get back on track. simply pushing yourself to do something is not always a sustainable strategy until you understand the real problem.

@Harold Warren sometimes we lack drive because we carry so much unproccesed emotional baggage for so long that's why we feel like it's so hard to get back on track. just writing down what you're going thru here is actually a form of release. I acknowledge you for being honest about it. that took so much courage to admit. Now think of yourself like a car. You’ve been driving the same road for 20 years, then suddenly your tires went flat. Of course you’d feel miserable and have no energy to keep going. like where am I going next? I'm good here. so forcing yourself to just be disciplined doesn't work. What you need is a clear vision where you're heading. something you're excited about. you need to dream again. When your goal lights you up, discipline stops feeling like a chore and fitness becomes a vehicle to get you there. let me know what comes up to you.

"bad" sounds like they are intentionally doing harm on others. I believe some people are just unaware or not skilled enough. calling them like this is shaming them to change. not sure if that kind of leadership is empowering people to improve for the better.

such a powerful reflection brother 🙏

Try to list down all the activities you need to do then categorize them by hierarchy of importance and urgency. Eisenhower matrix can help you with this. Then schedule them in your calendar based on what's your time and energy availability. Allot specific time of the week or a month to accomplish those which are not urgent and important. Over time, these small things pile up. Let me know any insights that come up.

@Woody Crenshaw if you feel like everything has same level of importance, you might need to add another filter. is this my priority at the moment? for sure out of 5 tasks with same level of importance, 2 of them are the most important. Then for the remaining tasks, ask yourself how long can i delay this? do I really have enough time and energy to do them this week/this month or it's best to delegate them? If you can't really accommodate more tasks, another issue I see here is to communicate your capacity to the people asking for your support. not sure how good you are in communicating that but this could be another area to explore. do you feel guilty saying no or there's really no one to do the work? if that's the case, delegating tasks to others is a better solution here. all these are leadership skills that can be further improved.