Harrison asked me to post this video, so here's what happened when I Asked my partner when I snap...

One moment I snapped this week was talking with my mom and got short with her after she asked a question that was a little obvious for the answer. Here’s how I handled it when it happened today when she asked what I would do with clients I currently have in Reno when I move. I gave myself a second to respond and think about it then answered back in a calm more thought out way of saying it’s not very feasible to come back to Reno 7 hours and take care of past customers vehicles. Rather than just snapping back like the other day.

"I have no control over how people will perceive me. The best thing I can do is be myself" It was mind-blowing to realise that I have no control over how people will perceive me. Even if I try to give Nice guy approaches, the outcome I'm striving for by doing that, still may not even happen. So the Nice guy would of course double down but it makes so much more sense to just be yourself because you have no control anyway, and that way you haven't wasted energy guessing! Action; Three traits you most desire to embody as a man (e.g. calm, confident, grounded). - Honest & Transparent - Maintains boundaries - Emotionally grounded The personal consequences of fully embodying each trait — how will it change your relationships, habits, and social dynamics? 1. This would mean putting myself out there even if it risks an argument/discussion. Not because the fight has been building but because I have made my feelings known 2. Maintaining boundaries would mean I would likely have arguments with some people. Even if I am going to look at it as an interaction of ideas. It's likely that this isn't guaranteed they will see it the same and may result in me having to hold my ground 3. By being emotionally grounded I'm going to have to address my people pleasing which will mean the amount I've been providing to others may not be same and will mean potential conflicts The fears or limiting beliefs tied to how others might perceive these traits? I'm most afraid about not being accepted for this version of me. If the true me is not loved by the ones around me. Because embodiment of these traits would mean showing my true colours. I'm afraid that who I am is not desirable, but I would rather die than exist this way anymore.

Yesterday I put my phone down for the day! Had it in the morning tell about 8:30 and checked it a couple times but it was good to not have it. It was an odd feeling for sure! Definitely some feelings of fomo!

Yesterday at bedtime well most bedtimes, is when I tend to crack and lose control of emotions or I’m just rushing through the routine of it. My oldest daughter likes to dawdle quite bit around these times and I always get on her about it. So not just this week but most days I lay them down I’m doing this but tonight before we start I’m going to breathe and get to a good spot in my core and be intentional with what I say and instead of correct actions I will connect with my actions. If I feel myself getting tight and frustrated I will breathe again and get through the bedtime routine without losing control and being grounded and more present during this time.