Harrison asked me to post this video, so here's what happened when I Asked my partner when I snap...

The current challenge im having I bettering myself mentally for building a brand around myself to help others. In order to do these I will be going through material provided to me through 1st Phorm supplements as a legionnaire. What I need from someone is accountability in checking to make sure I am going through 2-3 of the course materials a day.

After yesterdays call I have had some time to think about how I want accountability this week. 1. Listen to 10x is Easier Than 2x before Monday (trying to listen to the whole book) 2. Make a list of 5-7 Tasks Daily to Complete before spending the remainder of my day with family. 3. Do not go on my phone when spending time with my wife and son (unless we are doing something that involves a phone, but if I am on the phone it should not be work related).

Identify Level: I believe from this situation I'm at Level 2 The stages of Evolution is something I've been noticing a lot recently but felt daft to seeing it that way. The confession I posted about the talk with my partner about GMM showed me that at one point she walked off. I would've stayed in that space, basically waited for her to come back and had the same results. But when it happened I decided fine I need to cool off too, so I left the space as well, went for a walk did some breathing. I can back more grounded. I'm still at the point where I could navigate the situation as you all saw, I retreated to my old self when I saw how she reacted to this need for change. But now I know there will be another opportunity, and that gap will get smaller and smaller 🤏 My drill to practice daily (With Alarm implemented!) Practice the drill out loud today (say a heated line fast vs. slow and notice the shift). * and hopefully "Use it once in real conflict this week"

Last night I snapped at my partners Grandfather. I won't get into it but It was a stressful situation for all of us. Most the time I had been grounded but then when the tension of the situation rose and I had commands from multiple direction. I momentarily lost my feet and raised my voice. I re-grounded myself after this moment and helped out others in the situation and came to group with more presence. I apologised and thankfully her grandfather recognised the stress of the situation and my attempt to help, rather than the volume/tone it was portrayed. Nevertheless, this was a snap moment for me. Next time I will have a pattern interrupt - likely with a rubber band, to signal to myself that my anxiety is raising and I need to recognise the situation, not just the direction