Hello everyone. My story regarding chemistry to change oneself runs deep. In 7th grade, around the age of 13, I was diagnosed ADD (at the time ADHD didn't have the H) and OCD. I was born with some classic signs of autism such as hypotonia, delayed speech, and failing to respond to my name. I had sensory training and physical therapy as a toddler. As an early teen, I started my mental health medication journey. Since then I've taken of 30 medications for mental health. In 11th grade, age 17, I experienced my first manic episode. I believe it was triggered by Zoloft and with that medication I would have never received a Bipolar 1 diagnosis. Since that time I've had multiple episodes of mania and depression. In my mid 20s I stabalized, and today at the age of 40 I had been taking Seroquel 50mg and Lamotragine 200 - 250mg for over 10 years. However since the pandemic I have gained over 100 lbs and need to make a change. Right now I'm in an exploration phased with my doctor, trying to find an alternative to Seroquel that has a better profile when it comes to metabolic side effects. I'd like to write more but I'm running out of time. I recently landed a really good job, after one full year of being unemployed, so I need to get to work. I can't help but wonder though if my focus and attention has gone the way of my body. I feel like both my body and my mind are obese and immobile at this time in my life.