When this year started, I made the decision to take some time off, disconnect from everyone and everything, go inside and create identity shifts. It was incredible. It was the best decision ever because I fully transformed into a new person. And I attracted a completely new life. Everything this year just effortlessly came to me. I don't think I struggled for even a moment to "get" anything. Whenever I wanted something, be it money or something as small as a recipe from a specific person, it... just came to me! Now, I just completed a few big projects I was working on and I know what my next project is, but I have this compelling urge to once again disconnect from everyone and everything, go inside, really laser focus on my identity shifts, energy levels, build my attention and discipline again, before I get back to work. And it's like become an inner need every few months - to want to retrieve from everyone and everything. To desire solitude so I can show up from an overflowing cup. I'm wondering like is this avoidance of thinking about or exerting energy into a new project ? or freedom. To me it feels like freedom. But a part of me feels confused like everyone's always working around the clock, and setting up my business automations + being consistent on Youtube is something ive been putting off in the sense that "oh I've got an event right now" "I'm teaching my NLP batch right now" like I've been doing other projects so I was like I'll do this once those are complete. And they are now, but inside I'm like before I go-go-go, I want to ground myself and rest and fully have my inner ducks in a row so I can serve better. I guess now that I type it out, I see that I'm making the right decision because I'm just prioritising my well-being and fullness of service above all else. Because if you think about it, life is all about seasons. There's a season to plant the seeds and there's a season to reap the fruits. Now that one season has ended, my body/mind/soul knows it's time to plant new seeds!!!

It was 6:30pm... I was EXHAUSTED. I had hypothermia 🥶 as well, and was EXTREMELY TIRED. All I wanted to do was huddle under blankets and SLEEP. (This was just a few weeks ago btw) I then went over to my couch, laid on my back. Suddenly, hours 🕖 pass BY. I check the time. "8:30PM?!" It felt like only a few minutes had gone by. My DAD came over to me and said that I was out like a LIGHT. And that my MOUTH was open, I was breathing through it AND I was drooling everywhere. 🤢 What a sight that must've been. I was thinking "How the hell was I mouth breathing?" "I nasally breathe ALL the time!" Until I realised something.... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ⛔ I had the INCORRECT sleeping position. I was sleeping on my BACK, not on my SIDES, like I NORMALLY WOULD. Let's get into why sleeping on your BACK and your STOMACH is INFERIOR to side sleeping. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Firstly, sleeping on your STOMACH. 🫁 Why shouldn't you sleep on your stomach? There's MULTIPLE reasons for this. Such AS: 🦴 Poor NECK and SPINE Alignment: - When you sleep on your stomach, it's difficult to keep your spine in a NEUTRAL position. - This can lead to neck and back pain because your head is typically turned to one side, causing strain on the NECK. 🫀 Pressure on internal ORGANS: - Sleeping on your stomach can put PRESSURE on your internal organs. - Including your LUNGS. - This contributes to MOUTH breathing, which is NOT what you want to be doing during sleep. And other negatives TOO. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- BACK sleeping By far, the BIGGEST negative for people sleeping on their back...

A poem for you: So continue on your way each blessing, each day. This moment now… loves embrace. Here, without a trace.. in timeless space. Not this nor that nor this and that. Not me nor you nor me and you. Just this: the soul, and its growth, the bells and the blokes. In nothing there is the most wonderful joke: that the soul was born and it will die… Haha! … what a damn big lie! Yet precious it is, like a little kid.. a little soul: whose foot is laced with Huggies and cakes. As raindrops Fall— those tears and all.. from which Springs forth the Summers warmth. And a thought, a snow, a tasty cup of joe. On Winters sled 🛷 the soul that slides wherever it’s led.

Here's an excerpt from a book I'm writing that may hold an insight for whoever needs it in this moment: These people approach change with an “I’ll try” energy. I’ll try coaching. I’ll try therapy. I’ll try meditating. I’ll try to read some books. I’ll try positive thinking. I’ll try forgiveness. I’ll try to work on myself. And here’s the thing about trying - there’s no such thing as trying. Don’t believe me? Let’s play a game. I want you to put a pen in front of you and then try to pick it up. Did you pick it up? Or did you not pick it up? I mean, there’s really no in between - you either picked it up or didn’t. You either do something fully or you don’t. Trying is a lie we tell ourselves when we’re afraid to fully commit to the process. When we’re afraid to fail and want to stay in control. In trying, you’ll always just be trying - you’ll always feel like the change you want to make is just slightly out of reach. You’ll live a life of almosts - I almost changed. I almost went for that opportunity. I almost started my business. I almost fell in love. I almost traveled. I almost changed my life. But your need to stay in control kept you where you were. Do you try to change your clothes? Try to cook? Write? Work? It doesn’t matter whether you do something well or poorly, you either do it or you don’t. But if you’re always trying, you never start. Once you commit to something - a greater level of you, a life that’s aligned with your most authentic self, a mission or a purpose - there’s no other option but the pursuit of it. No other path exists in your mind. It might take you ten days, weeks, months, or years, time doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters to you is your commitment to a greater expression of yourself in each moment. You fall in love with the journey as an end of itself. There’s no real outcome you seek, no final destination to arrive at. You drop into the essence of being your highest self in all moments you can remain conscious. In moments of unconsciousness, you simply see it as an act of falling, not failing, but falling. Like when a little kid is learning to take their first step, every time they fall down, their parents don’t tell them that they failed. They say, hey buddy, you fell and that’s okay! You can get back up. That’s the difference that makes the difference. Allowing yourself the grace to fall down and get back up, without ever mistaking falling for failing. There’s no failure in falling; it’s simply feedback and learning. Each bruise gives you the opportunity to awaken a deeper part of your soul. And it all begins with letting go of control. Setting your safety net on fire. Deciding that the road to your old self simply does not exist. This isn’t a trial period, it’s a membership for life. You’re either in it or you’re not. That’s a decision only you can make for yourself.

I wonder what you guys think of this poem. It seems to be about you, me, us: ——————————— Attention to me! This unknowing dances the dance of creation.. Being as it does Doing as it be’s “But what is this creation?”.. asked mr. logic. “What else could it be other than this? Other than… me?” — responded ms. Soul “This is as awake as me gets, after all..” …and I’m paying attention. To what? ..to my reflection. Check the mirror. Look.. can you see?!… it’s me doing you, whatever you’re doing. Naughty boy.. Yes, it’s all fun for no good reason. Creating this.