((This is a request for personal insight and advice for approaching a single facet of severe CPTSD, I do not know if this is acceptable here in this forum or not, but I wasnt sure where else to reach out. Team, please feel free to remove or move this post if it is not appropriate for this channel.)) ----------------------------- I have chosen to begin this journey with the intention of learning to TRUST others again. I theorize that maybe, if others can consistently trust me as they do, I should and can also trust others who are safe. The question becomes ❤️‍🩹"how do I allow myself to trust the individuals (mentors) who are literally trying to provide me that space?" I have struggled my entire life with expression, rooted in the way I was raised by hostile environments that taught me to be as small and quiet as possible. The last three days have been very eye opening and frustrating for me. Even now, I am almost 36 years old- living in a house with my husband and two little ones- and I still do not feel safe enough to truly express any of the deep emotions within my chest. I feel things very deeply for brief moments- they show up in my eyes and the back of my throat- but never go beyond a few silent tears or the lump in my throat. This happens to me constantly through the day. Big feels, very small expressions and little to no space for them. However, trusting that I will not be shamed, silenced, ridiculed, or create tension in my environment (even now) left me feeling very blocked during Adam's incredible session on Wednesday. So much so that my body literally shut down and I lost a good portion of the session (time travel? Dozing? Fainted?) between the initiation breaths and regrounding with gratitude. I do not want to "waste" my 1:1 session if I am not truly able to experience it. I do not know how long the offer lasts after the initial sign up for the classes. I do not know what I need to do to help bring myself to "trust" a mentor (or my environment) to allow myself to release or experience whatever I need to experience. This has ALWAYS been the greatest hurdle for me when it has come down to therapy practices and my attempts at healing. I dont know that I'll have enough time in 90min to even figure out what the heck I need to do to utilize the session for its intended purpose.

I recall reading that a picture of Millie would be posted. I have not found one. Am I looking in the wrong places please? R.I.P. Millie. She sounds truly loved and amazing and I would so like to see her. She has been on my mind a lot since Friday. My heart breaks for Nadeem and all Millie's friends. 🙏💔🐶🌈

Iam so greatful by being in this community learning such amazing modality of Breathwork!! And I have enjoyed attending every single workshop that has been provided for us!!! Thank you @Adam Carbary @Nadeem Al-Hasan and @Steven Jaggers you are all the best at what you do!! And Iam so greatful and completely humbled of being able to attend the training this time around thanks to an amazing soul @Ashlynn Bones for sharing with me the gift of the plus one!! Thank you for your kindness! Iam completely so greatful! And my heart thanks you!! See you all soon!!

Hello everyone! Today's session was a rollercoaster for me. During the session itself, I think I actually dozed off for a short time- I went from being focused on the hold at the top breaths and the 3rd cycle of breaths to suddenly hearing Adam focusing on calming breaths and anchoring in gratitude. This was profound timelapse for me- the intention I set was requesting acceptance and rest. I was seeking answers to questions I didn't know fully recognize or know how to ask. Spoiler: I received all of the above today. Story Time: Earlier this year, I created an LLC in hopes to come up with a business plan that might help me better practice my private home healthcare. I went in with a friend who seems to be more focused on the "get rich quick" methods, so he was obsessing over finding some way to get large amounts of business funding for whatever spur of the moment ideas he came up with. It didnt feel right, but I went along with his energy because I wanted so badly to have my own income and not be a slave to the grind anymore. Long story short, he got us tangled up with a scammy funding model and it was very stressful for a few months, during the same time I was caring and supporting my Gram in her ICU stays before her passing. I was making decisions in very reactionary and heightened emotional states, and it was definitely not working out the best. Turned out my friend really was more of an attachment than a partner. He has zero credit and a criminal history, so it was not possible for him to get funding on his own. I had credit scores over 800 thanks to Gram's wisdom and lifelong teaching of financial responsibility. During the process he enrolled us in, it required me to pay up front nearly $8K on a Klarna credit account- mind you, neither him nor I had any income at this time so this was a terrible idea- and eventually I ended up trusting my guts and backing out of the entire ordeal after some very unfriendly exchanges and threats made towards me by the funding company's "support" team.

In the last workshop that we got the blessing of the purchase one membership and you could give one to someone you know, I would of love to be in the position to do it for me and bless someone else, unfortunately I was not in the position of doing that! And this time around that we are being blessed one more time with the opportunity, Iam going to express the desire I have in my heart to ask this amazing community that if you find yourself in the position, and financially means to sign up to the 12 weeks training and you wish to bless someone with the heart full of gratitude, I would welcome the gift and be forever grateful! Iam putting it out in the universe and letting it go! Meanwhile Iam going to enjoy the gift we got because I know this gift will only continue to change my life! Thank you so much! I appreciate you all very much.