I am sort of stuck in a loop of low currency energetically and financially, lack of solid strategy, taking half actions, and not commiting myself to accountability. Awarness and Intention i have down,its the other parts i need help with I know I am worth more than what they will pay me at a job, but i am so burrnt out on working in the System. I know we all been there at some point, i feel like I dont want to go to a regular job, but if I dont I wont be able to take care of my financial needs and provide for my family.

I have been so proud of myself over the last 30 days, I have been in deep conversation with myself, reminding myself who I am. i stopped smoking cannabis for this whiole month and was so happy and in my JOY! but then I looked back. I retreated to my little bubble of comfort. I smoked weed again and I see how much it inspires me yet keeps me in a trance state that is challenging to break free from. It’s not the cannabis tho, it’s me. I been playing small for way too long and I AM done. My iintention is to step all the way on and leave no parts of me left behind I AM BIG and I AM allowed to take up space!!! ALL of ME!! Here now! First, I am aware of my situation and what has been taking place, what is out of balance . Secondly, I am setting my intention to be fully realized and embodied as the true and living ME! My next steps are to create a strategy around this, which is what I’ll be working on when I arrive back to the mainland on Thursday. I WILL take actions to balance this out Help me celebrate with a GIF that you think is a reflection of me please